Until Jesus came

Chapter sixteen***

I want the God of wonders work miracles for me, those with gifts and talent they spoke prophetically.

I want the mantles of Elijah, Paul and Timothy, I want to see the power as it work inside of me.

We will seek your power, your presence and your grace, and we won't stop running, we won't stop pursuing and we won't stop praying until we see you face to face."-Micah Stampley

"It was so awesome"I scream in his ears post-youth-conference-excitement was pumping through my veins and Samuel eventually gave up to calm me down.

He rubbed his temples to console his early stage headache, that caused me to create an instantaneous silence and I started to stare out of the window, until I felt him grinning.

I tried to glance over to him without him noticing and I realized that he faked his headache. So I continued shouting, talking and laughing just to pay him back.

"Are you nervous?" He asked out of the blue, I cocked my eyebrows.

"For Wednesday choir practice, it's the first since Sweet Miss Margaret resigned" I wasn't sure about the choir leader thing.

I mean I ruin everything special to me and was I good enough to sing in God's choir and to glorify his name in truth and in spirit... no I wasn't sure and I was sinking deep down in thoughts.

"Samuel, I'm not sure about the choir leader thing," I confessed while panicking to him and he patted my shoulder in a very failing and disappointing attempt to calm me down.

"Prophetess Jane, picks her choir with the best care and with divine intervention from God and she only pick those who will glorify Jesus with their heart and not with their mind.

I believe that you can serve God with all humbleness."Samuel rambled on for some minutes and I just couldn't keep my mind of this whole thing, until in all of the sudden I felt the hand of Samuel on my lap.

"Hey don't worry, God can use everybody" I flashed a smile, because I finally believed in myself and I finally believed that God can to this for me.

He must've notice my relaxation, because a content smile flashed on his face and he pinched my nose.

"Just believe Naomi" I nodded and promised that to myself in my heart.

****

"Hannah was there and Mama Virtue sang, Man I missed a lot,"Hope said while shaking her head, her husband starting blinking his eyes and poured some water in his cup.

"We could've miss the movie, because this was I guess the most wonderful conference in years." He said while handing some water to Hope who grateful accepted it, after that some love declarations followed, what caused an akward and an extremely uncomfortable silence.

"You guys can't stop, show your love to each other" My aunt stated and I wasn't sure if she was joking about it or being mean about it.

The other's weren't sure either, because the silence that followed was unbeatable and my aunt took off, Hope wanted to follow her, but I grabbed her wrist and I knew what it's about, I knew my aunt.

"I'll go" I said and I held a deep breath and followed her,I saw her sitting down with her eyes pressed together, she was clearly holding her tears back.

I realized that this will be the first time I had a serious urge I forgave her and I slightly nervous plopped down next to her. I still thought of leaving her.

"They're so happy" my aunt spat and I was right, my aunt was jealous, jealous because she isn't married and jealous, because she didn't have children she envied my mother too and I want her to stop with these bad behaviors.

"It kills you now" I said piercing right through the point and she nodded and tears spilled out of her eyes and she wiped them away.

"Envy is deadly, jealousy kills" She whispered and I pulled her into my arms and planted a few kisses on her forehead.

"God will provide a husband for you, a God fearing man" She opened her eyes and shook her head.

"God gave me the chance to marry and to get children, I already blew it" I grabbed my hand and squeezed it, her eyes fell on the ground and I forced her to look at me.

"Pray, we need you to be happy" She grinned and devious laughter came out of her mouth, I cocked my eyebrows, because of my confusion.

"How come you become so holy all of the sudden" She mocked at me and walked away, I wanted to follow her, but somebody grabbed my wrist.

"Don't follow her, Hope will talk to her," Samuel's breath was tickling in my neck, I pushed him away, but that only triggered him to tighten his grip. I pleaded with my eyes, but he only turned his eyes away from me.

"Samuel, please I need to talk with her" he let go of me and I ran after my aunt, she was packing her bag.

"Why are you leaving," She ignored me and pushed me aside.

"I need to go, are you coming home with me baby?" I Stared to the ground and she took that as a no and walked away from me, I grabbed her wrist.

"Naomi, look we don't belong here" She grabbed my face and kissed me on both cheeks.

"I'll see you in church, baby" with that she left the room and I dropped down on the ground and tried not to listen to the others talking.

they were objecting her decision to leave the house and she was explaining to them that she had to take care of herself and Hope pleaded her to stay and I felt glued to the ground.

After some time, a crying Hope stormed in the room, she didn't expected me, because she almost got a heart attack or something.

"Oh, sorry i'll leave you here" I called her and patted the spot next to me and she plopped down next to me and we sat there in an absolute silence, until she broke it.

"I don't know what I did wrong"She stated through some sobs and it didn't take her long before she broke out in tears, her pain and sadness struck me badly, because people like Hope don't deserve pain and sadness.

"You didn't do anything, Hope" She grabbed my hand and planted some kisses on it, I couldn't hold my confusion back.

"Your pain tears me up, I dislike your tears with passion"I said while wiping them away and a long warm silence came again and I dediced to kill it, by telling the truth.

"She's very envious, she envies your marriage" There was no shock present in her expression.

"We know Naomi," I decided to leave it for now and just nodded.

"Naomi, I love you so much and you're such great friends to me."

"No, we're sisters" And her smile that followed was bright and beautiful enough to light up a city.

"I love you" She whispered, like she was afraid to say it and I repeated it so soft that even didn't hear it.

*****

Weeks had passed and I hadn't seen my aunt in the church. I really felt sad for her

Me on the other hand started living in the church again, I never missed a single service.

My life started to become more meaningful, it felt so good to finally live a life with a purpose. Hope and I grew closer together, but after a few more weeks I felt a weird pain stabbing me in my heart and a dreadful sadness was squirming from my head all the way to my toes.

"What's wrong?" Samuel asked with a slightly worried undertone. I shook my head and tried to keep my tears in my eyes.

"Come on Naomi," I became annoyed. I pushed him away and aggresively wiped my tears away, the tears that forced themselves out of my eyes.

"I miss my aunt," He sank in deep thoughts, he grabbed his car keys. Gave me a nod and grabbed my hand.

"let's go to your aunt then,"