Can you keep me safe?

Chapter 2

I sat in the car shaking trying to compose myself not wanting pc budd or any of the police in the car to see me this vulnerable I needed to compose myself . But that is not what I needed to do I needed someone to stroke my hair and rub my back and tell me it was ok but instead I sat on my hands and stared out of the window. I could feel pc budd staring at me through the car mirror all I wanted to do was look back up into his blue orbs and feel safe he had something strange about him something captivating. I breathed in deeply feeling comforted at the smell
Of a mixture of soap and aftershave around my body and I realised I was bleeding through his shirt and felt a sense of guilt. He glanced at me again through the car mirror and a look of worry washed over his face before returning to his professional manner.

"Ma'am it appears your temporary stitches have not held its best to apply as much pressure so you don't Loose too much blood" he said loudly

I pushed my hands down onto my shoulder pressing it as hard as I could . My eyes pricked with pain and it felt as if someone was stabbing it with tiny shards of glass. Although using all my effort the red flower on his white shirt began to spread and I was loosing more blood by the minute.

"Sorry but why didn't an ambulance take me straight to the hospital" I said through gritted teeth

"Unfortunately ma'am as your identity has been compromised I have been order to take you straight back to hq" he said not moving his eyes from the road.

The pain began to feel unbearable and I decided to close my eyes. Soon the warmth of rest washed over my mind and body and I began to dip in an out of dreams. Suddenly I woke to find myself lying on the back of the car seat with pc knowles hovering over me in a assertive voice still applying pressure to my wound.

"She's loosing to much blood skip, pass me the medics kit in the back" she ordered
"Aye got it" he huffed looking concerned
"Ok I think we will have to get the bullet out as it appears to be lodged in her shoulder muscle, which is causing a lot of bleeding"
"I'll do it I've done this plenty of times in Afghanistan and I've always fancied myself a good doctor" he looked down giving me a reassuring smile

I hadn't noticed through the excruciating pain but we had pulled up by some woods and where long gone from the Manchester . I tried to tune my attention on the sound of the birds dancing in the sky making a symphony of noises. I had always been fascinated by nature ever since I was little no clue as to why I ended up in the intelligence sector. Budd  began to work fast and gently until he was to the stitches I looked up to see his brow furrowed and his face all contorted his hands shaking the tiniest bit as he tied the last stitch. He sat me up slowly and stared deeply into my eyes and began to softly wrap the wound with bandages and gauze. You thought he would have been clumsy with his big rough hands but he had such a gently warm touch that I couldn't help but blush when his fingers brushed my skin. I buttoned  up the now red bloodies shirt and touched pc budd ever so slightly he jumped and turned around.
"Yes ma'am"
"Thank you um pc budd you may of saved my life maybe we can get to a first name basis" I smiled
"Well um I'm David"
"Well thank you David and you can just call me y/n" I said and he smiled before returning back to his tough exterior.

We returned to the police car and made a long journey back to my home London. The surroundings seemed to comfort me looking out the window and watching Londoners struggle with there umbrellas with an endless battle with the wind which the umbrella certainly didn't win.I can't stand the quiet the hustle and bustle of a city is what gives me energy and makes me feel alive I like to know I have people around me and that I'm not to amerced in my own company. As the police car came to a halt David jumped out and opened the car door for me and me and pc knowles left the car. David seemed anxious his jaw would not stop clenching and it was making me feel worried. I looked up at mi6 and made our way to the counter terrorism unit there I was greeted by the head of my unit Alex Younger.

"As you are aware your identity has been leaked so you are under immense threat from terror organisations, therefore we have decided to place David Budd as your PPO" he said with authority

"You really believe I need someone to look after me are you questioning my ability as an agent?" I said almost laughing struggling to contain my anger

"No we simply believe you should always have someone by your side and as how would you like it put backup" he said sharply

I glared at him with my sharp blue eyes but feared it was probably for the best after all David had saved my life

"Thank you sir apologies for my rudeness" I said blankly

And with that I turned around and left with David following sharply on my heals. We made our way down the escalator to the reception and where put in a car to the hotel. When I sat i the car to my embarrassment my hands would not stop shaking so I placed them on my lap and hopes David didn't notice but of course he did. He hesitantly placed his hand over mine and rubbed circles into it, his very touch did something to me made my heart race and my stomach fly just as if i was 13 again. We got out of the car and in silence made our way to our room.

"Wait outside y/n"
I scoffed "how long will this take I just want to get clean"
"All clear" he bellowed.

I ran to the bathroom and felt the urge to throw up again. I needed to make myself feel clean jason had touched me and I couldn't stand it I ran the hot water and jumped into the shower the boiling water scolding my skin but I couldn't care I just wanted to scrub him away form me. Red water circled the drain and left my skin. I left the shower and feeling a bit better grabbed a towel wrapped it around me and went to see what clothes they had left out. Just when I opened the bathroom door I bumped into David's torso and he turned around to face me and went scarlet red
"So sorry ma'am I went to inform you that my door will be unlocked so if you need anything you can come through the connecting door" he mumbled before awkwardly retreating back to the door
"And what did I say about first name basis" I shouted giggling and he shut the door. Once in bed I found it hard to allow myself to sleep but once I did I was only suffocated by memories and dreams of Jason and Jason's hands all over me I couldn't breathe my whole body violently shaking and screaming out in fear. David ran in
"Oh my god you gave me such a fright. oh y/n" he said rushing towards me as he could see the floods of tears streaming down my face. "What happened" he said placing a finger under my chin so
He could look into my eyes " I just can't stop seeing it David! Jason touching me and his hands all
Over my body I feel disgusting" I said in fitfulls of tears shocked that I opened up so much to David. He looked at me sympathetically and tucked a stray piece of blonde hair behind my ear, " never say that you feel disgusting what he did to you was shameful and it makes me so angry" he said with pain in his eyes "I wish I killed him then and there that bastard" he muttered "but it doesn't matter your safe know ok you have me here" he said stroking my hair. He then got up to leave but I nervously pulled his hand back, "please stay" I whispered. With this he jumped next to me into bed and let me put my head on his lap and his sat upright rubbing imaginary shapes onto my back, I only just noticed he was only wearing boxers and thought it would be best to move my head form his lap. He then looked at me funny "why did you move? I can leave know if you like" he said "no please don't" I said pleadingly and lay my head onto his chest falling asleep to his rhythmical breathing and scent. Something felt so homely about David.