Wrong Game

Chapter 20

Ross
My heart started racing as I watched her dressing up this feeling again. This pressure in my chest as she didn't look back at my face.
"Don't do this" I pleaded but she didn't care neither did she even act like she  heard me plead.
"Please don't" I watched her take her steps out of my sight until she closed the door" I was restless , pained , a sudden stroke of anger  building in my chest as I remembered my past with my exes all the girls i ever disvirgined left me the same way not caring about my feelings. Was something wrong with me ? Did I always say screwed up? Maybe was it my finance again ? Yes it was surely it as always. My thoughts went blank for a good while as my rage of pain manifested into anger having me flinging everything around me to the wall.

Everything about Trinity came back to me her promise of never letting go her unfaithfulness her greed her impatience everything was so dark in ma heart at the moment and I remembered my mum.
<remember this KR girls will leave you when they notice you can't give them anything consistent but a woman will stay with you and work with you until you can give her everything > (KR-Kamrun Ross)
<<and remember never tell them who you are until you are fully sure of their devotion and uninterested about being like other girls but just being your woman.>> her voice sounded in my head forcing me to calm down but not changing my hate and anger for girls at the moment.
I fixed the pallor and headed to my room looking at the sheets still on the bed her smell all over my bed brought back my anger. I pulled it off the bed and sent it down the bin.

"Why is this happening to me always nd always?" A tear escaped down my cheek I swear I never cry but the fact that they all betrayed me after I had shown them everything about my emotional self made me feel weak.

Trinity just like Kim knew what words did to me even worst silence worst but yet they still did what they did what the did. I need to take a break from all of this, this town and all these fake faces. Probably it's time for me to go home and accept that this world isn't for me I need to accept dads words his anger. I remember when I left.
<<your weak too weak to survive in that world people will hate you for being poor are you sure you want to leave all you have here?? You will come back growling on your belly but till then don't text nor call me father>>

My heart pained me as I was about to do what I never wanted to do but I needed to change the person I was to become the person they will kill to be with they already when I was nothing.

I looked at my screen before dialing my mother's number hesitation picked on me but it was long I hadn't met with her , Called after 10mins of reflection.
"Hey mum"
"KR"
"Yes mother"
"KR"
"Mother"
"How many times have I called you?"
"Twice mother"
"It's been two years since I heard my own sons voice do you understand"
"Y..yes mother"
"Why are you doing this come home please"
"I am coming home mother I can't deal with this life no more"
"Are you alright?you fine? What's wrong"
I giggled as I remembered how she always slaked many questions at the same time every time I was sick.
"I am not mother I just need your words"
"Come home baby I'm waiting for you I'll have your room ready"
"What about dad"
"Don't bother about him he's out of the country for some days"
"Will he take me back mother?"
"Despite your decision trust me he will your his only male child"
"Ok mother"
"When are you coming?"
"Today mother"
" I can't wait to see you son"
"Me too mother I have to drop now so I can get ready"
"Say it first"
I knew she wanted me to apologize for leaving her alone since my sister had left for the USA before I left the house.
"I'm sorry mother for leaving you alone"
"No say it"
"I love you Mum"
"Good boy I love you too hurry back home I'll cook you best dish personally"
"Haha ok mother I'll leave you now"
"Ok son bye see you soon"
"Boy mio mama"
I heard her giggle behind the phone cause it remembered her of how much I loved Italian songs when I was little.
I dropped the call and the memory of my Italian collection came back to me I had to play one to ease my temper but I over heard noice in the parlor probably they boys were back and I didn't wanna talk to nobody at the moment.
I grasped my Bluetooth speakers and hit my favorite of favorites. Kelly Rowland ft Tiziano Terro-Breath gentle.

Se cerco lo vedo
L'amore va veloce e tu stai indietro

Se cerchi mi vedi
Il bene più segreto sfugge all'uomo che non guarda avanti mai.

The only part I loved about the song was that part even though I didn't understand what it meant I just liked it.
I packed up a little back and looked my room and the memories of those two girls made me so mad I couldn't believe I had gone through the same thing twice.
I stepped out of the room met the boys playing game but didn't really wanna socialize so I just passed with a smile and left the room.

** Ross seems to be very much affected about this situation but truly the reason is why? Adding to that we hear of his past and his family. Who really is Ross? Have an idea? Read more to know**