Scarves Rings and Lipstick

Taking a Break

Hi
You may wonder why I'm greeting you for the third time today
I have something to say
I know you wont like the way its going to unfold
I've been told these words are colder than my rhymes in winter
I fought the urge to use them
Alas I am no victor
I think we need a break

I think I made a mistake falling in love with you
And you with me
I see too much and not enough of myself in your murky eyes
Not sure whether my sight is blurred by the lies I tell
Or my slurred speech spurred by the bottle I'm on
Or the clothes that came off while at it

Permit me to skip to the part where
I've searched the top shelf for patience
It appears there's nothing left
For the humor that drew me to you
For the sadness that drew out my inner carer
For your understanding as you watch the games I play
You're too good for me and I've asked you to stay away before
Wish you had read the afore mentioned warning labels
You'd be able to realise I'm stuck on comparing his touch to yours
Wanting to hear his laughter ring through my ears
You nurse and cajole my fears
Daycare
He cheers me on when I make decisions that give me nightmares
I've decided I want more
And not of you

Dont get your panties in a bunch like the brand new thong wedged in my crack
I gave you the cheat code but you're evicted cause I feel conflicted
Feel invaded
And slightly jaded
I'm starting to think what we have is overrated
Pardon me while I count off all the qualities you lack

Don't look at me that way
As if to say you didn't notice when I started to change
I'm only mad cause you're aware of the rules of the game but you act like you've never played
I kinda feel bad
But I'm glad I'll never get these words off my chest or this raven desk
You'll have questions to ask
I won't give you the time of day
I'm done
Communication crackling out of range
We're breaking up

This isn't my first rodeo
Darling I insist you keep looking
The man I've come to know is resilient
Your adventure with love has just begun
I can't bear to watch you come undone
Your soul is too pristine to see I'm trash stuffed in flesh
Bursting at the seams

This is me jumping off this train
If I twist an ankle don't save me
I won't cry
If you try to follow, the hollow I just poked into you will gape
For heaven's sake let go

I know you won't stop yearning
But I've set our love alight
Watched it burn
Ashes in an urn
There's no phoenix in this story
Not while I'm in the equation
I've made up my mind
I don't need persuasion
I'm taking a break and I need you to have your back
Cause I'm not coming back