Before You Were Mine

Chapter Nineteen

A/N: Hey guys..I had a really hard time writing this chapter. So, hopefully it won't be too bad. Anyways, I guess I was trying to capture the innocence of Elena and Stefan's internal battle with him 'silently' loving her without him actually saying it to her, if you want to call it that.

Hope you all enjoy it though. :)

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Before You Were Mine- Chapter Nineteen

-Elena-

I could tell you a lot of things about him. The way his smile never leaves his face as he unclasps my bra and we both watch it fall to the floor. The way his heart pounds so fast against the palm of my hand as I rub his chest that it scares me to think of what is going on in his mind. I could tell you that he's been true to his word- that he's kissed every inch of my skin so far up until now.

Stefan's lips linger just above my belly button as the sheets fall down below his waistline and I close my eyes, leaning my head back against his pillow and trying to remember if I've taken my damn birth control pill. The fear of getting pregnant hits me like a speeding train and it doesn't take long for me to stammer out these exact words. "I'm on the pill!"

His head snaps up as he works tortuously to undo the button to my jeans and slide them down. The heated room keeps my body temperature warm as we both fall silent and all that I can hear is him laughing at me!

"I'm responsible. Don't worry." He chuckles, straddling my hips as he leans over and I hear a drawer open as he smirks and pulls out a condom, placing it on the table and staring at me and then back at it. "I hate those things. But, to be safe. We can use it later." He winks, leaning back into me and capturing my lips into a fiery kiss as I open my eyes and lean my head back to stare at the condom wrapper again. I wonder how long he's had it in there?

"I just- I don't want any surprises." I mumble out as his teeth graze over my bottom lip and his mouth hovers near my ear when he whispers. "Don't worry about it, Elena. Trust me."

I laugh out a breath, wrapping my arms around his neck and pulling him closer to me as my mouth sucks down on his ear lobe and I whisper out breathlessly. "I do, completely."

"Good. Because I trust you too." He replies, working his mouth down my chest as he leaves a quick kiss just above my perky breasts and works his way down the middle of my sternum.

"What are you doing?" I giggle, running my hands nervously through his short, brown messy hair as his green lust filled eyes catch my gaze and he smiles widely. "I'm keeping my promise." He explains, watching my eyes nearly roll in the back of my head as his tongue swirls around each of my aroused nipples.

"Stefan..." My breathing is swallow, my hands gripping his shoulders as I feel his lips smiling against my skin and he laughs a little.

"What?" He questions, moving his rough calloused hands to the elastic pink colored waistband of my underwear, lowering them down gently.

"I..." I can't find the right words to express myself. How do you tell a man that you love that you're scared of getting this close? How do you tell him that you've never done this before and being this close makes you feel completely petrified of yourself and what the feelings of lust and desire can turn you into?

"It's okay. You just got to trust me. I promise that we'll go slow." He says to me with a truthful tone as I hear his hand lift up and it smacks against the bedside table. My foggy mind is trying to catch up to what he's doing and then when my eyes finally see it- a sense of relief washes over me. We've been kissing and fooling around in his bed for a while now and all I can feel around me is his body stiffen, my core aching for him as he groans against my shoulder and I gasp when his erection brushes upon my inner thigh.