Love hurts

Chapter 3

Emma's p.o.v
My heart was beating out of chest as I stared into draykes baby blue eyes. "Emma you can tell me anything you know?" Drayke said cutting the thick silence in the room while moving closer to me studying my face. "I-I I really like you Drayke. Ok? I have since the moment we started talking, and I know you probably don't feel the same way but it's been killing me inside, watching you laugh and have fun and I'm just so ugh- I wasn't planning on bombarding you like this, and I hope this doesn't ruin your playlist because trust me that's the last thing I would ever want, and I told Hannah my feelings for you and she suggested I'd wait till the end of playlist for the main reason I don't don't potentially ruin playlist for you or anybody else and because know that we've finally met just to see how strong my feelings finally are. And they are surely they and stronger then I can handle." I breathed looking down, not being able to bare the look on his face

A few moments have past and it was still complete and utter silence I took it upon myself to break the silence "Drayke please, say something, anything you don't have to say anything regarding that speech I just had but I need you say something" I pleaded and one tear managed to slip down my cheek "Emma I-" he whispered I could feel my heart break into a million pieces and drop down to my stomach I nodded and put on a smile, I'm sure it looked as sad as I pictured it too "I get it, it's fine" I said smiling up at him, I've never seen this facial expression before so I had no idea how to judge it, I turned slowly on my heels and slumped towards the elevator Leaving him there speechless, "I-i like you too Emma Jane." He said barely a whisper but still loud enough for me to hear. I stopped in my tracks feeling my cheeks turn crimson I stood there, shocked. "I really fucking like you Emma, you are all I've ever dreamed of. You are my happiness you give me a purpose and I don't deserve you and seeing you walk around joking and hanging out with the guys makes my stomach turn because I want you all to myself, all the time. I've never felt this way for somebody before and I'm scared about that. Because I don't want to fuck this up like I've fucked everything else up-" I cut him off by running over to him and jumping in his arms wrapping my legs so tight around him I think I took his breath away I smiled so hard I could feel my cheeks hurt his arms wrapped around my back holding me on like he was afraid to lose me, "you are my whole world Emma, please never leave" he mumbled into my hair "not even if you tried to push me away would I" I returned smiling so big I thought my face would crack he looked into my eyes and in that moment I knew he could understand me more then I could understand myself. CLICK CLICK CLICK we heard cameras going off around us "Drayke!! Bro you finally told her" chases voice boomed down the hall as his phone was in his hand taking pictures of us I giggled and hopped off him and took his hand in mine, and smiled up at him, to see possibly the biggest smile I had ever seen on Drayke he noticed me smiling up at him and looked down at me and had a look of admiration in his eyes and squeezed my hand even tighter "what's going on" a groggy voice called from down the hall I looked across to see Payton In just joggers with bed head staring at me and draykes hands intertwined and a look of hurt washed over his face which was just sleepy one second ago. He sighed and walked back into his room Drayke nudged me to say 'what was that about?' I shrugged "uhm maybe I should go talk to him" I said un-doing my hand from draykes and fast walked to Payton's room I knocked on the door and heard some shuffling around and then the door opened  and I seen Payton, not the happy Payton we where all used to, but a broken Payton. He nose was red and his eyes where poofy and his face was wet with tears my smile dropped at the sight of him and we both stood there staring at each other "pay" i whimpered and he sniffled, I pulled him into a hug " why Emma, why not me?" That sentence had done it for me it broke me. "I- I don't know Payton I'm sorry because you're the best guy I'd ever come across, you're all always there for me no matter what time it is I know you're there for me. You are the biggest blessing in my life and I'm forever grateful and I'm so sorry if I led you on or anything I never meant too" I said hauling away from our embrace "you never lead me on, I fell for you on my own"he said giving me a shy smile, I slowly raised my arms to wipe the tears from his red cheeks "uhm Emma can we talk?" A voice questioned walking in to the door frame.

Drayke, I looked at Payton and he nodded before flashing me on last smile that looked genuine and I smiled back at him to thank him. I nodded and left Payton in his room and Drayke took my hand to lead me out we made it to the elevator and the electricity travelling through our body's was amazing, I never would have thought that holding hands with somebody would have so much spark behind it I guess it goes deeper then just 'holding hands' it's the chemistry the two people have for each other, the battles they fought to be where they are right now, with me and Drayke we've been through so much on our own and to finally have somebody there that understands what you've been through and to learn from each other is extravagant and to me, that is love. To learn and grow with somebody.

I am so proud of this chapter guys:) I feel like there's a lot of feeling into it? If that makes sense! Anyways, for my upload schedule I guess I don't have one:( I write everyday but I'm in my final year of high school and work when I'm not in school! Therefore I'm always busy but I am TRYING so hard to keep uploading as much as I can:)
-Ria