I, Dean Winchester, am in love with Castiel Novak ***UNDER EDITING***

Chapter 11

Me and Dean were always with each other. We went back to school and Sam got with Gabe. They were happy. I was happy. Everyone seemed to be happy.

That was until one night when Dean started getting worse. One night he jolted awake, in pain like last time.

"Im okay Cas" he groaned, "It'll go away" I didnt believe him for a second. This was the second time. Then there was a third. And a forth.  Everytime he was getting worse.

"Dean" I cried into his chest, he pulled away in pain and looked at me, "I'm going to call an ambulance."

"Don't Cas" he cried, but I ignored him, "Cas don't, I'll be fine, I don't want to lose you!"

"You will never lose me" I cried as i called the ambulance. They came around as quickly as possible but before they arived Dean was slowly passing out. His eyes became droopy and he stoped talking, a blank expression was plastered on his face.

"Dean!" I cried holding his face in my hands, "Stay with me, please" his head became heavy so did his body. If i didn't know better I would think he was dead, but i could still see his chest moving up and down ever so slightly.

"I love you Dean, I can't live without you, hold on for me please, hold on" my voice went quiet as i heard people walking through the door, and just like last time they lifted him up onto the strecher and took him away. I didn't leave his side the whole time. I saw as brought him into the ambulance and placed an oxygen mask onto his face. I heard as they said thy didnt know what was causing this. But i also saw his eyes open.

The whole day began to blur, I couldnt even remember walking into the hospital and sitting at the side of the hospital bed Dean was lying in. i could hear the steady beep of the heart machine, meaning he was still alive. I reached my hand out to hold his as he lay there unconscious.

"Would you know my name" i sung quietly though the tears, "If I saw you in heaven?" I looked at his pale face and then felt him squeze my hand slightly.

"Cas?..." he sighed as he woke.

"Oh my god, you alive" i pulled myself over to him, hugging him softly. I pulled away and quickly pressed a button, calling a doctor in here.

"Mr Winchester" the doctor said as she walkd in with a smile on her face, "How are you feeling?"

Dean smiled a week smile.

"Okay I guess.." he sighed, looking at me.

"Okay, any pain?" I looked at him, he didn't say anything, just nodded his head slightly. I felt a tear fall down my cheek.

"Please dont cry Cas" he said turning to me, "I love you, don't cry" I nodded my head, and tried to control the tears.

"It's not too bad though Doctor, just a little pain" He answered.

"Well if you okay, Ill leave you two to talk." She smiled and left the room, shutting the door behind her. 

As soon as she left i almost threw myself at Dean, hugging him with tears stremming down my face.

"Cas, don't worry about me, I'll be fine." I nodded my head even though i didnt believe him, and i didn't think he believed it either.

I stayed with him all day, all week. They didn't let him leave, so i wasn't going to leave. I told him stories about us being together. About how happy Sam and Gabe are together.

I reminded him about our date to the fair, and how much fun i had. I told him about our picnic looking over the beach and how much i loved him. As I talked about everthing, I saw a tear fall down his cheek, but it wasen't sad. He assured me that they were happy tears, happy he found the love of his life, his soul mate before it was too late.

"Don't talk like that" I told him when he said 'before it's too late' he just shook his head slightly.

"I dont know how long i have left Cas" he cried, and seeing him cry made me cry even more. I didn't care what he said, we would be togther forever, he is the love of my life.

"I dont know what I would do without you Dean" I whispered.

That night i slept close to him, lying on the bed as he wrapped his arms around me. I fell asleep listening to the steady, beep, beep, beep, of the heart machine and the quiet sound of Deans breath in my ear.

I've felt the coldness of my winter

I never thought it would ever go. I cursed the gloom that set upon us...

But I know that I love you so

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