Love and Pain are the same thing

My Life behind the curtains

Pansy pov 

I'm Pansy Parkinson I was a huge bitch back then and I still regret It to this day but It was the only way, to make people fear me I hated being the one that was being stared down. I remember when I was born and I  remember my mom the things she would say to make me feel better saying It was okay to cry. Saying It was okay to love and fear things because she said It was natural and I still remembered the last day I saw her. I was walking outside and I was wearing my necklace my mom gave me when I was six. When I was walking in the woods I was humming a song I will never forget and I didn't even know I was in the forbidden forest that my mom said not to go to. 

I didn't know, I'm sorry, I'm so sorry as I was walking I heard whispers but I thought It was the animals then a crack and a snap I turned around to see something that still haunts me this day. It was tall so tall and It was as dark as the night and It had no eyes but a skull on Its body looking at me I remember the scream I let out, I remember the crying and the red there was so much. I couldn't do anything but stand there as I saw my mom standing in front of me smiling before saying "It's not your fault" then It disappeared and my mom was on the ground with blood covering her. I remember dropping on the floor and screaming then It raining, that day the glint in my father's eyes never returned. I never returned not even her I did this, me I took everything from my father and he did the same thing to me. 

Those scars, bruises, and memories will never leave my head after my father changed I was always beaten and yelled at. I remember everything he said, "You did this, to me, to her, to our family and you will never be forgiven after what you did shes gone and this is all of your fault, you useless child". I was never allowed to go outside again I couldn't talk to my father but the most horrible thing he did was sell me but that horrible thing bloomed. I will never forget the first thing Draco said to me "welcome home sis" I cried so much that day than I ever did I had a family. He looked so nervous when I cried like he did something wrong but I just hugged him I had a brother and I will never forget this day.

I remember the first day of Hogwarts I was so happy but I made sure to down It a little while we were shopping I had a memory when I saw the butterbeer I started to tear up. I would always have a butterbeer with my mom after twelve. Draco saw me and hugged me he knew what I was feeling when I told Draco what I was going through he looked so sad and he would always comfort me. When we arrived there were so many people but one has always got my eyes her name was Hermione Granger she was so nice but independent and so smart but she was also so brave. I was picked Slytherin so was Draco I was happy but she was Gryffindor and the more we grew up the more Draco hated Harry Potter I swear that Idiot never shuts up about him.