Reality

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My mother and brother had both stared at me in shock as I rejected my mothers offer on going for a drive. I had ignored both of their looks and turned my head to face the window. I loved when it was sunny but so did he. The sun doesn't make me happy anymore, it just makes me miserable. I had bit my lip as I tried not to let the tears fall down again. "B-But it's sunny and you love going for a drive.." I had turned back to face my mother was she stuttered that sentence. I could tell she was getting upset because I was sad so I finally decided to go but I told her I was just going to come in my pyjamas and not change. For once she agreed and with that, her and my brother had left me room. I don't know why I had agreed to it. It was only going to make me more sad. Now my father was going to see me upset and it'll just make this whole situation even worse. I had finally gotten out of my bed and headed over to my mirror. I slowly dropped to my chair as I realised how I looked. My hair was in a very messy bun as my eyes were all puffy and red with dark circles under them. I've never looked like this and it was scary too see such a sight. I couldn't go out looking like this. Especially if we're going to go pick up my father but I had no motivation or energy to do my makeup so I just let it slip and risked it. After staring at myself in the mirror I had then got up and went over to my bed grabbing my phone. It was now 8:03am... I don't understand how the time went from 6:00 to now 8:00. It was somewhat of putting. Anyways, I had grabbed my house coat and placed my phone in the pocket as I headed downstairs to go to the car. While I slowly walked down the stairs holding tightly onto the railing I wondered if I would see him on the roads. He would normally drive to his grans house at this time, especially on this day. I'm not a creep or anything for knowing that, we would normally tell each other our day routines and why we won't reply as quick, which is why I know what he's doing. I guess I've gotten used to it. "Careful". I had suddenly snapped out my thoughts as I heard my brother. I then realised that I was at the final step of the stairs. "Are you guys ready?", "Yes, let's go. Come on Charity". After that small and quick conversation I had followed my mother and brother to the car. Surprisingly my brother sat at the back for once allowing me to sit in the passenger seat. For that, I was kind off grateful yet it still wasn't enough to make me happy. Normally whoever sits in the front gets to control the music and since I was in the front I had connected my bluetooth. I could feel my brother staring at me as if I was going to put on some really depressing music but he didn't have to panic. As much as I'm really sad, I'm not like those other people that listen to heartbreak songs. Instead I listen to songs that are slow yet bouncy. If that makes sense. My first choice was 'Cars, Clothes And Calories' from blackbear. I would normally sing along but I seriously had no motivation to do anything. Half way through the song I could see from the corner of my eye, that my mum would look at me then my brother. Probably because I wasn't singing. The drive to my father's office felt like forever but we finally arrived as my mother moved to the backseat allowing my father to sit in the drivers seat. My father had finally got in the drivers seat and looked at me with a comforting smile, he then started to speak with his gentle voice. "Hey honey, how you doing?". Terrible dad, I'm feeling like hell. "Mmh... I'm good dad". I felt even more guilty lying to my dad but I had no other option. I didn't want to affect his mood. He looked at me and gave me another smile before driving off. "Sweetheart, the kids want to go for a drive". My father had looked at my mother from the mirror then looked at me while replying with a "Is that so?". I know he wanted me to answer but I really didn't want to and my brother had noticed this so he took immediate action. "Yeh dad, but not for too long". My father had still fixed his eyes on me without paying attention to the road, I was scared for a bit until he finally focused his view back on the road. While listening to music my phone had went off to a notification from Leo. I knew it was him from the message ringtone. I had chose one especially for him so I knew whenever he texted me. Without hesitation I had opened the text. It was delivered 6 minutes ago yet my phone only informed me now. Maybe it knew my pain and didn't want me hurting more? Don't be stupid Charity. As I looked down at the text I could feel my heart starting to race. "I know you're just going to ignore me after I said we shouldn't see each other but it's very sunny outside and you know how your favourite weather is when it's sunny so maybe that could cheer you up even though you don't seem too sad.". My jaw dropped at the last part of the message. Was Leo really like that? How could he think so low of me. I wanted to hit him so badly yet I wanted to have him in my arms and never let go. Though, what i didn't understand was why he messaged me like this? What was he trying to do?