Maybe the Night

I am the youngest in our family, sabi nga nila the youngest can cause the family the happiness for everyone. But to bad, I think I'm the only one who causes them sadness.
"Nighthren come out of your room now. We'll eat dinner na"
Tumingin ako sa salamin, ever since my face changed. The treatment of people around me also changed. I can't get out of the house without wearing a mask, a face mask.
I traced the broken part of my face and a tear rolled down from my cheeks.
Hindi ako nakakaalis sa salamin ng hindi umiiyak. I already broke almost hundred mirrors because of this stupid broken face.
Pero acceptance is the best key, but how can I forget that even an insecure family member do this to me? I tried to sue her but my unbievable father covered that issue with millions of money.
I went to my bathroom and applied concealer on it.
Ito ang unang tapak ko palabas simula kaninang umaga. Gabi lang ako lumalabas dahil sa gabi lang naman kami kompleto bilang pamilya.
Sa umaga at hapon sa kuwarto ako kumakain.
Suot ang roba ko at night dress pumasok ako sa dining area.
"Formalities Night. Dress nicely"sita ni Lola sa akin. I went to do the Filipino manner. Nag mano ako sakaniya at lumipat kay mama at kay papa.
I removed my robe in front of them and hang it nicely on my chair. Suminghap si Lola at si Mama. "Dios mio, Dayreen. Anong tinuro mo sa anak mo?" nanliit ang mata ni lola sa akin.
"Kain na po tayo"
The night went as usal. The typical bussines talks, kamustahan with the family.
"Nagbasa ka na naman mag hapon Nigh?" tumango ako.
"I'm going out tonight ma, pa"
My lola shook her head while my father nod.
"Sige. Wala namang makakakita sayo"

This family should've let me die months ago, Their close treatment to me disappeared like a released bubble. Ngumiti ako at tumayo.
"I'm going out now"
"NIGHTREN" my grandmothers thundering voice echoed in the kitchen.
Only my grandmother cares for my feelings no one else.
My brother even stepped out of my life as if I am  disgusting and as if I hold a contagious disease. I can't even feel the motherly love anymore, the support that I used to have with my father. Sa halip na sana iparamdam nila ang pagkukulang nila sa akin ay hindi, they choosed to step away and let me stay in my comfort zone.
"Sit and finish your dinner" my eyebrow shot up.
"Lola. I'll eat in a more fancy restaurant." tumakbo ako pero yung robe ko naiwan ko sa baba. Napapikit ako. Impokrita.

Habang nag papalit ako ng damit pumasok si lola.
"What?" tanong ko ng tinitigan niya lang ako. "My dear Night you changed"
"My family let me changed"
Habang nag tatali ng sapatos, naaalala ko ang ginawa ng pamilya ko sa ospital ng nalaman nila ang ang nangyari sa mukha ko.
My mother screamed that even the mirror in the room broke.
Hindi umabot ng dalawang oras ang nangyari sakin. The rumured walking and Nightren Ley Debora just went gone. She died when her mother screamed in disgust. She died when her brother move to a different house.
Yet she felt alive when her grandmother kissed her broken face. Mahapdi ang dampi ng luha sa aking sugat noong itoy bago pa lang.

"Come home before the sun rise" tumango ako. Kailan kaya ako susuway? What if ngayon? What if hindi ako uuwi bago mag umaga? Will my father kill me now? I hope so.
I'd rather die than feel this hatred.
Paalala ng ina ko yan. Come home before the sun rises. Don't let the sun touch your skin Night.

I kissed my Lola a goodnight before walking out.
A broken masterpiece is out for adventure everyone!