The biggest problem about being a protagonist is you think with your heart instead of your mind
Caring about people way too much
People who don't even care about you
Who are willing to replace you with the next hot and rich blood
Yet you've given your time and sacrificed everything for people who will never appreciate
I ain't a complainer but I'm also human
And my heart bleeds
It bleeds for love that's never reciprocated
Bleeds for people who don't care if you even got home safe after hanging out with them
Bleeds for the too loving heart that don't get the same energy back
Bleeds for the naivity of loving wrong
Bleeds for all the time wasted
Bleeds for every other day that I'm not able to air what's ailing my heart
Bleeds for the fact that I'm in a unrequited kinda relationship with the people who are closest to me
But I have to be strong
I have to learn to give just a little
I have to let go and never be too expectant
I have to let go off the fact that this might be a trial for poverty for them
But enough is enough
Even beggars become tired of begging
They don't have anything but they become tired of everything
I ain't no beggar
I got a provider
I'm just tired of pretending that everything is okay
Nothing is and nothing ever was
But they are too blind to see that
Always quick to get on with new rich blood
And leaving you out even of conversations sometimes
You had to work your way to being accepted and feeling worthy but no-one sees that
I'm always given the most difficult task of proving myself to people
But I'm tired of all this
I don't need people who don't accept me for me
I'm just tired of not being me
