I was frightened
I saw someone stab me from the back repeatedly
It was a middle sized knife
I could not cry
I wondered how could someone be so inhuman
There was no pain coming from the stabs
But thinking of the cruelty hurt more
I was scared
When I saw myself in a casket
I was advising my sister
Who was given the mantle to choose my funeral clothes
I requested to buried in a t-shirt
And I was lying in my casket
But could make the suggestions
Wierd how of all things it had to be a t-shirt
I did not want to see sad faces,
I told everyone that I've always been a happy soul
They should be rejoicing in a life well lived
I was afraid
There were two buried bodies
It was like a puzzle where we had keys
We had to identify the body by solving the puzzle
I was the only one who had the courage to pick the keys and open the outer covering
Someone else had to go down the grave and open the casket
It was not who we thought it was
There was a former student of my high school lying there
We did not know if she ever passed on
But her rotting body was down there
If this was not the one, then it had to be the second one
We were two of us who stood there deliberating if we should open
Or just leave and find closure without seeing the body
I woke up before we decided whether to open it or not
They were all dreams..!!
Terrifying dreams
Dreams that I did not know the meaning of
How could someone dream so many times in a month about something so life threatening
I prayed and prayed
But I think this is a message
Of
Me living basic,,
I should live purposefully
Is it a wake-up call??
I will pray
I will fast
To get my answers
To live a better life
I am noy going to die
Without living life
Without achieving my dreams
Without making my mama proud
Without building my mama a house
Without giving mama a high end life
Without enjoying good life
I have to build my CV
That later becomes my eulogy
I just can't fathom death now
I can't allow myself to think about it
Or to accept it
Because I have a whole life ahead of me
God please, it's not yet time
Please don't take me yet
