I am 17 now. If Vanessa was still around, she would be 17 too. I sit there, in my room, totally bummed. I still haven't kissed another girl, and I still miss her. Michael hasn't really been around alot. he has a girlfriend now. Her name is Starla. Starla has blonde hair with blue streaks at the very ends, bright blue eyes and thin pink lips. Of course though, Starla is a slut. She has been cheating on Michael, with Jason. Being I'm inbetween them, I am the only one that knows.
Nowadays, I keep myself busy with work at the Grill (It's a Restaurant), school, and alcohol. Being those things are the only things keeping my thoughts going, I am okay. I have had my Delusional Paranoia less often now. I keep thinking I see her, and then she dissapears. When I go to sleep, I hear her cries when she left. It tugs at my heart, and prevents me from thinking straight. Jason is either kissing Starla, going to school, or getting drunk with me. My room, used to be bright blue but is now a suttle gray. I look outside to the playground still in my backyard.
Just a few years ago, My mom had two more children. Masec is my 3 year old brother. He has blue eyes and brown hair that remind me of Vanessa. Lea is my 2 year old sister. She has blueish purple eyes with dirty blonde hair. Masec and Lea love me, but when my mom finds out about the alcohol, she yells at me, and we argue, and Masec and Lea have to wait in their room. I see Masec swinging on the swing. I smile, but that smile fades when I get a text message from Jason, "Dude, txt back pronto" I respond with a "Wat J?" Within another minute, My phone beeps and it says, "Thers a New girl coming to school tomoro!!! U call Dibbs?"
I sigh. Jason has been trying to hook me up with Girls for about a year now. All they do is hook up, try to kiss me, and when I say no... They leave. I'm kind of glad though. Everytime I met a girl, I would stop having Paranoia for like a week. I then respond with "Do you know her name?" He sends a smiley face and then in another message, "Her name is Rebecca Stein, and she transferred here with her dad and her brother Tommy. They'll be joining us tomorrow" I smiled. Well here goes another Paranoia Free Week.
The next day at school I go into History and There she is. It's her. Holy Crap. HOLY DUMPS. She looks excactly like Vanessa! The hair, The face, The figure, The nose! Her eyes are a orangey-redish-brown though. The Smile is the same too! She waves her hand out, "Hello, I'm Rebecca, but you can call me Becca if you want." She smiles again. Then the boy standing next to her, "Hi, I'm Tommy Bayle, but you can call me Tom." The teacher smiles and says, "Are you two siblings?" Becca smiles and says, "No." They both take the seats in front of me and Jason. As Becca walks to her seat, She sees me, and then frowns, and then sits down. As class goes on, I see her whisper something in Tom's Ear. Tom looked at me, but when he realized I saw him, he turned back around and whispered something in Becca's ear.
What was going on? What if it WAS her? Does she remember me? Does she still like me? Is she dating Tom? Can I kiss her?
By the end of the day I knew this, from Jason and from others who met her:
-She is 16 years old
-Tom is 16 too
-She likes the color red
-Her birthday is November 16th
-His is October 7th
-And about a quarter of the whole school thinks she is a vampire
-And sadly, Tom is her boyfriend.
OUCH. That made me sad.
I wanna find out if it really is her or not. What it really is Vanessa, and she is using this Tom guy as a cover? Or what if it is really a random new girl that I am becoming Paranoid with?
I walked out the door of the school, and saw Becca and Tom sitting by the tree on the bench. Becca looked sad. Tom got down on his knees infront of her and took her face in his hands. She must be upset about something. I found myself walking over to them, "Are you okay?" Becca looked at me and changed her whole face, "I'm Fine... Thank you." I waved and walked away. I didn't want to push my luck.
