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Stupid to lose you

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⚠️ cussing, self harm⚠️
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It's been a year since I had heard his voice, smelled his scent, looked into his eyes, touched his skin, feel his love.

Why was I, so stupid to lose you?

Why couldn't I, have kept my mouth shut?

Why couldn't you have, not left me? Alone

Why did you have to, move on so fast. While I'm still waiting for you, but you didn't give a fuck about me?

I would have died for you, I would have done anything for you?

But, you wouldn't. I hurt myself, because I feel like I don't deserve to be here.

Like, I can't be alive anymore.

You kept me alive. You were my light in the darkness, but you left me alone.

I sat in the darkness of my room, that I've never left. I never ate. Never left the house, after that day. I know people say, 'don't get to attach,' but we were together for 5 years. I thought he would be my husband, and me his wife. Why was I so Stupid? to not see that he never cared, always came home late but I let it slid, was to "caught up in the moment," that I couldn't see past your lies. Love hurts.

I went into my bathroom. People check on me, but I never answered their calls or texts. I just let the phone ring. I sat on the bathrooms floor and pulled up my sleeve, to see small cuts, I had made. I was now ready to get rid of the pain, to not feel what I did, to not care about HIM. I grabbed the razor, and put the sharp end on my arm, and started to cut.

Slice, one for being stupid.
Slice, two for still loving him.
Slice, three for not being prettier.
Slice..slice..slice..

I kept going, until my whole arm was full of blood. I then felt sleepy, I closed my eyes and saw darkness, Did I do it?

Did I die?
Did I end it?

I then saw a light, I had did it but..that light soon made noise; like a beeping. I had open my eyes to see that, I was in the hospital.

No...NOO!!!

who.. who did this??

"Y/n, your awake"

That voice sounds familiar, could it be him? I tried to let my eyes focus on the brightness of the room, and after a couple of minutes they did.

It was him, he had a look of worry...He sure did know how to act, so well. I looked at his eyes, then down at my arms; to see that they were wrapped, why I didn't want to be here anymore.

"Y/n, are you alright?"

I felt myself become angry, as I looked at him then.. I let my anger control, my words.

"Of course I'm alright..after trying to kill myself, because of you anti, of course I'm alright, after I have cut everyone out of my life, because of YOU!! Because I still love you, but now your trying to act like you cared; where the fuck were you, then you sure as hell were not there when I was left alone, after YOU BLAMED ME FOR BEING UPSET, BECAUSE YOU WERE OUT PROBABLY FUCKING SOMEONE ELSE, WHILE I STAYED HOME FEELING LIKE EVERYTHING WAS OK... IM FUCKING ALRIGHT!!!"

Tears welled up in my eyes. his face was in total shock, but I couldn't help myself. I had this anger inside me, that I needed to let out. I felt the salty tear fall.

I slowly wiped my eyes then closed them, hoping that maybe I was in a dream, all I wanted was to be gone form the world.

From him.

I open my eyes, I couldn't see a thing, 'where am I?' I ask myself, as I let my eyes adjust to the darkness.

I see a shadow at the end, of what seemed to be a hallway, who could that be?

I slowly start to walk towards it, to only be meet with HIM, again. Once I knew who it was, I felt like walking back to where I once stood, but I kept walking forward.

Before I knew it, I was facing the back of his back, it was like I was in one of those movies; were a lover finally meets the other, but in this case, only one of us missed the other.

He had turned around, so we where face to face.

"Anticepticeye, I'm done with your games. Where am I." I say to him, I didn't even look at him, I just looked down.

"Ouch, what the matter kitten, you never called me by my real name?" He said.

"DON'T GIVE THAT BULLSHIT, YOU KNOW EXACTLY WHY, YOU CHEATING MOTHER FUCKER, YOU LEFT ME, YOU HURT ME TO THE PONIT WHERE I TRIED TO KILL MYSELF, BUT NOW. NOW YOU WANNA COME BACK, WHY? DID ALL YOUR OTHER BITCHES LEAVE YOU, JUST THE WAY YOU LEFT ME!" Once more, I felt tears in my eyes, but I wasn't going to cry anymore. I wiped them away, and stood my ground.

" *sigh* I know I've cheated in the past, and I know I hurt you, but I do love you, but since I'm a demon. I never really knew how to love, until I meet you of course, I would not be good at it but, once I lost you, I felt empty; like I needed you, but I was so scared that you would be with someone else, and just forget about me. That I just didn't look for you.... until, I felt that something bad happen to you; that I showed up to where you were and saw you bleeding out, that I took you to the hospital to try and save you."

I could tell he meant everything he said, and I could tell he still cared for me, and was he.. crying. No this is all an act, don't give in to it.

"Wow you sure do know how to act, I mean the made up story that you still like me, and good one with "I'm a demon, I don't know how to love. Why I cheated, but oh you changed my mind," pathetic."

"I do still love you, babe, please give me another chance?"

"Sure, another chance so you can cheat again, of course." I say, trying my best to not give in.

"Y/n. I'm not lying, I have changed because I still want to be with you, my love I know what I did in the past was wrong, but I truly am a changed man.. demon.. man demon? Whatever, I've changed; please just give me another chance?" He said, with plead in his eye's that, made me just want to hug him.

I go back to that day, I mean it has been a long time since it happen, and I mean he dose still care, because he saved me but do I want to give him another chance?

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