I've got a head full of ideas but they're always incomplete. and then my head attacks my heart and I find the answers to be bleak.
Mislead representations and misunderstood complications; see, I arrive on time but the train never leaves the station.
Walking to the beat of a broken drum, I guess I didn't think this through. I just wish I had the nerve to introduce myself to you.
What am I talking about.. I'm the only one in the room.
I still don't think I'll ever see this through.
Its not my fault, usually I'm content but maybe as of lately I've been slightly overspent. I can't afford rent, so fuck it.. I don't know how else to vent.
I hope I don't run out of paper.
Life's a fucking bitch and she wont let me escape her, So instead I'll fucking rape her. Slit her Goddamn throat with a rusty fucking razor.
.. Excuse me for a moment while I go outside and walk around. I just need a couple minutes to calm myself back down. What is that sound? Oh right.. There's no one else around.
I have only one request as I tightly knot this noose. Make me Heaven bound and fucking Hell proof.
But if I do go to hell, Ill probably stay there for a while. Ill walk through the burning flames wearing nothing but a smile.
On second thought, I think Id rather go to hell.It actually sounds peacefull.. Except that rancid smell.
At least I'd burn well, maybe stapled to a wall?
Cuz I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all.
I'm sorry if i'm rambling, there's no need to be scared. Just don't forget about the burden that you bear.
What the fucking hell, I think I'm fucking drunk again. Now a days the alcohol is my only Goddamn friend.
I don't like this frame of mind, and I would kill for nothing less
than to shoot myself in the head while wearing a bullet proof vest.
The irony is beautiful, like a flower with no stem.
Or the kid that's only different cuz he just wants to fit in.
I find myself sitting in the darkest corner of the room. Staring into space because there's nothing else to do. When suddenly, I snap to. But I don't come back as me, I come back possessed by you.
What should I do?
Should I try and fight back or should I just accept the truth? Come to grips with the fact that I am nothing without you?
No, Fuck you stupid bitch! Your just a voice inside my head!
I don't believe in wishes but I wish you were fucking dead.
So why don't you fucking die? There's so much venom in your veins, you simply wont survive.
Your the sanity that's driving me insane, but not tonight.
This time, your losing your own game. Just don't go down without a fight, and I'll promise the same.
But in the meantime, focus your attention on the sky. Think about how cool it would be if we both learned how to fly.
Take my hand and follow me, lets go jump off the roof.
Like I said before, I hope were fucking Hell proof.
But if I don't make it out alive, swear to me you will not cry.
When my ride finally arrives.. Please, just let me say goodbye.
When its my time, I will need you to let go.
When my stories over, please just let the curtains close.
I don't need an applause.
Or a standing ovation.
I've got my one way ticket.
Now I'm just waiting at the station.
