❝paper moon❞ renhyuck

❝nine❞ end

It was almost as if Christmas didn't exist as well as the days before the 31th of December.

Renjun had gotten his needed therapy and Donghyuck the long waited kidney. Though both males were still weak physically. Renjun once tried to show some ballet moves to hyuck, but even if it never came out perfect the stars in the tanned male's eyes made Renjun want to get better and do more physical exercises.

Since Donghyuck's body needed to get used to the new organ he couldn't get out of bed yet, but that didn't stop Renjun from sleeping with him during those cold winter nights.

When ever both of them couldn't fall alseep Hyuck would read a book or sing a lullaby and when Renjun would fall asleep, he'd admire the beauty next to him.

But Hyuck would mostly read Renjun poetry, mostly which he found beautiful enough to be worded out. Even if neither of them never really understood what the poet meant by the choice of words, their favourite must have been the sonette of autumn:

❝Hey say to me, thy clear and crystal eyes:
'Why dost thou love me so, strange lover mine?'
Be sweet, be still! My heart and soul despise
All save that antique brute-like faith of thine;

And will not bare the secret of their shame
To thee whose hand soothes me to slumbers long,
Nor their black legend write for thee in flame!
Passion I hate, a spirit does me wrong.

Let us love gently. Love, from his retreat,
Ambushed and shadowy, bends his fatal bow,
And I too well his ancient arrows know:

Crime, horror, folly. O pale marguerite,
Thou art as I, a bright sun fallen low,
O my so white, my so cold Marguerite. ❞

The pure yet horrid feeling somehow made Renjun and Donghyuck connected, possibly because that was how their lives were when they met- full of innocence and heart aches.

It was a new year in a few minutes. Renjun and Donghyuck were near the hospital window, waiting for the fireworks to start.

Renjun sat on the opposite direction from Donghyuck on the younger's bed. He would have loved to cuddle to Hyuck's side, but after today's therapy session he felt shy.

31st of December marks the day when Renjun realised his feelings for Donghyuck completely, but he decided that he should wait. He didn't want to make a sudden mistake that would make him have to forget all those bright memories of being with donghyuck.

It was about time. People outside and in the hospital corridors were counting from ten to one.

Hyuck took Renjun's slim hand in his own without a word and exactly at midnight with blooming lights he whispered: ❛i love you❜

Renjun's widened eyes reflected the colors and it looked like his irises were a galaxy yet not discovered.

It might have been too fast, but the older took the chance and held Hyuck's face in his hands ready to plant a kiss on those soft lips.

❝may i kiss you?❞ Renjun asked, feeling a little afraid of rejection.

Hyuck's eyes squeezed shut as he smiled over how pure Renjun was, yet he nodded nonetheless. Ready to be kissed by an angel.

Renjun leaned in and let it happen.

Lips on lips their time stopped. The kiss they shared made Renjun's heart all warm and to him it felt like that's exactly what love is supposed to be.

Anything that his lover would do, should spark joy. May it simply be smiling, pouring tea into a cup or singing out the words from a book.

Anything that would make Renjun fall in love with Donghyuck once more.

Dear darlings,

Possible that this is it, that this book has ended, but honestly this may be the worst ending yet.

When i start to edit this book i really hope i could make it much more memorable and somewhat closer to romance.

So i hope that i won't disappoint you with that.

With love,

Mai