Let me begin with by just saying I'm a huge fan of Johnny Depp, Helena Bonham Carter, Tim Burton, and Angelina Jolie.
I respect every celebrity or to which fandom you belong to as long as you respect me too.
I live far far away from my idols. I just know that I will never meet them. EVER. It would be a miracle if that happens. Though gladly, I have met two of my idols. Johnny Depp and Angelina Jolie. Yep. In wax museum located somewhere in Hong Kong. That was one of the happiest day ever! And no, I don't live in Hong Kong but I do wish that I could.
Almost forgot... My name's Elise. Just like in the movie, The Tourist. God, I love that movie. I have 3 more sisters. 1st one's Brigitt, the eldest and the most caring sister. Eventhough she's the eldest, she's still studying now, probably taking doctor in philosophy. She wanted to study more so there she goes. 2nd one's Francizka, she's in Germany. Probably taking up literature. 3rd's Cassandra; she lives in London. Working as Helena Bonham Carter's intern. She's so lucky and I envy her so much. Next one's me. And the youngest is Carolina. She's in Argentina now with our father. Even though each one of us had different fathers, we still loved each other since we have things in common which is, we all love Johnny and Helena so much. I guess we all got that trait from our mother. I'm 16. I'll be turning 17 on this November. I'm in college now actually. A freshman to be exact. Yep. College provides great anonimity and I'm loving it. I can be whoever I want to be. I can be myself. I can be the weirdo that I want to be. I should have the freedom of whatever I want to do. Aside from smoking. Heavens no. I really wouldn't do that. I feel like it would probably the biggest sin that I will ever make if that happens. And drugs of course. Hell no.
First day of school in college. I wore a light pink shirt with a collar. I wore my glasses as well. Didn't go to school with any makeup. I wanted them to see the real me first before I do anything to my face.
As I went to the bathroom, I saw some girls putting on makeup like they would normally do. It was something quite new to me because none of this was allowed in my school before. Everything was definitely a culture shock. You'll meet different kinds of people. That's something that I like about in college.
I want to be known and unknown at the same time. It's insane I know but, I don't know... I haven't exactly figured it out yet.
I didn't make any friends during the first day. But on the second day, I did what my high school friends told me to do. I should introduce myself as a vegetarian just for fun (I'm fat fyi). And for the impression of I'm approachable and... I'm trying to be funny. I failed though. It's alright. I just hope they got the message.
During Thursdays, people would go out drinking. They call it a Happy Thursday. I guess it's because most people don't have classes on Fridays. I do. I never tried drinking before. I'm in college. So I tried it.
I liked the taste of whatever it is that I drank. Then of course, we introduced ourselves informally and tell each other some stories. Get to know each other. Everything went well. Sadly, no one in our block is a fangirl.
I wasn't DEPPressed or anything. It was completely normal and I'm used to it since nobody felt like me back when I was in high school as well. I suck. People would bully me. Yeah. I was a loser. I'm in college so whatevs!
As days went by, people asking me if I smoke, do drugs or what. I said no. I never tried it and never knew anything about it. Now they think I'm a loser. Great. From elementary to college. Great. Just great.
Maybe it's because of my appearance as well? Obviously I'm not that good-looking since I never had a boyfriend ever. Everyone in my school looks good and... They're so cool. I wanted to fit in so I tried to be like them.
I once wore an outfit that it would make me feel like I'm a spy. It was a leather or spandex type of long sleeves, a white pants and a boots that's a bit below my knee. All eyes was on me. I suddenly existed.
Something was wrong, I knew my friends were talking behind my back. What's new about it?
At the end of the day, one good friend of mine confessed to me that I looked horrible. It looks like I was wearing a bondage type of clothing and told me to never wear it again.
It broke my heart. I didn't know what to feel or do. Good thing I was already about to go home that day. It brought tears to my eye as I was inside the car. Thinking about losing my weight or whatever it is that I have to do. But it's hard. I thought that when I go to college, I can be whoever I want to be, I can wear whatever I want to wear and still be anonymous. But no.
I went online and talked to my friends on Twitter. My fandom family. It's great to talk to them. They're really nice since they won't be judging based on your appearance. They live on the other side of the world which is sad. I wish I could meet them.
