Christian's POV
"Can I sit?" I nod and he sat down next to me. I can feel his warmth. I don't know what to say so I tried to continue reading.
"Christian, can we talk?" He was looking at me but I broke the eye contact. I tried to ignore him for a long time. I ignored my feelings to him and now I'm trying to ignore him.
"Christian, why do you ignore me?" I still wasn't looking at him but decided to answer.
"You really asking why? You kiss me and then telling me it's a joke. You always messing with me on the stage. You kiss me. Hug me. And then you are making out with Jordan!" I feel tears filling my eyes. But I couldn't cry. Not now. "You are so blind. You don't see what's going on around you. You exchanged me to Jordan. If you pay more attention on me you would notice something!" Tears already falling down my cheeks. I wanted to tell him about what I feel but something stopped me. I am afraid that I can ruin everything between us.
"Christian... I... I'm sorry... I want to tell you something..." I was angry and I was tired of all this shit.
"Get out!" He looks at me with eyes full of tears but I don't want to change my mind. " GET OUT!" I yelled as he stands up and leaving my room.
I'm alone. I'm crying. What have I done? I needed to listen to him but I'm such an idiot.
I hear the front door closes. I leave my room and look around. No Mitchel. He has left.
Mitchel's POV
"GET OUT!" He yelled. I feel like someone put into my heart a knife. I wanted to stay with him to calm him down, but he was so angry at me and couldn't make a normal conversation. I saw him crying. I made him cry.
I left his room and made my way to the front door. I took my jacket and left our house. I have no idea where I'm going. I found a cigarette in my pocket and light it up. The eleventh cigarette today. It was too much but I need to calm myself down. I hoped that it would work.
Walking down the street I saw a bar and decided to spend some time there.
I entered the bar and cigarette smoke immediately filled my lungs. A lot of people were sitting next to bar and drinking. I decided to order vodka. So, why not? I hoped that it will help better than cigarettes. Then another one shot. And another. Probably I ordered about 6 shots. And then I see Angeline. Christian's ex. I waved her and she walked forward me.
"Hey!" She said smiling.
"Helloooo" I couldn't properly talk because I was wasted af.
"Do you want ecstasy?" She asked.
"Yeah, why not? " I said still smiling and trying to stand straight and not fall.
She opens her bag and gives a small pill. I put it on my tongue and swallow. After that I went to bar and order one more shot. I feel the drug starts working and I missed this feeling. I haven't used drugs for a long time so I decided to go to the middle of the crowd and dance with them.
It was about 4am when I realised that it's only several people left in bar so I decided to go somewhere but not home. I wasn't high anymore and not that drunk. I was slowly walking down the street and decided to got o the beach to watch sunrise.
When I arrive toy favourite spot on the beach I sat down near the palm tree and checked the time on my phone.
4:40 am.
16 missed calls from Clinton and Kras .
I decided to ignore them and stay alone as long as I could. I don't want to come back home because i will hurt Christian or he will do this. I'm confused in all this situation.
I can see the half of the sun. The sky is slowly turning orange with pink and it looks awesome. The light is slowly appear on the surface of the water. I feel myself better with every second.
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