even just a bit (jikook/vmin)

one

i had thought that it will all ended at america but guess i was wrong, because here we are again, inside my room with taehyung who is on top of me. "i missed you." he whispered and just buried his head on my neck. "but we just saw each other at the office." i chuckled as i hug him too, i'm afraid that if this continue i might just wanted this even more and can't stop anymore. i'm afraid that my greedy self will take control of me and might ask for more to him, and terrified to find out that at the end she was still the one he will go home to and not to me.

"we did but i can't really hold you like this, i can't kiss you like this." he said and kiss me deeply. before bumping his nose to mine, staring at me. "yah!" he suddenly shout and pull his self up and support his self with his elbow. "what?" i chuckled, "tss i am jealous. you keep on giving jungkook attention." he said before pouting at me, my heart aches, he was jealous but i can't be really happy by that. him doing this making me fall deeper on my own grave. it keeps on making my hopes higher. "but he's our workmate and our friend." he shrugs before rolling his eyes. "your friend." i laugh at that and subtly agree. he pouts even more making me chuckled before pulling him to give him a kiss.

"hey you should go home now." now even saying that is much more harder than before. it hurts to force it out. "it's late she's probably worried for you." i look away and tried pushing him off. i sat up and tried holding my tears, i feel him sat up and backhug me. "i wanted to stay the night." he said and rest his head on my bare shoulder. i wanted that too but you aren't mine, i can't take away something from her. even though i wanted to. "but she's waiting." i forced the words out and forced my smile. "okay, but you will let me stay next time okay?" he said and gave me a kiss on my cheek and forehead before he stand up and gather his clothes. i was watching him with pain in my eyes but immediately fake a smile when he looks at me and gave me another soft kiss on the lips.

"i'll see you at work tomorrow baby."

as soon as i heard my door close, my tears finally run out freely. the guilt is now eating me alive. i turned around and buried my face on my pillow as i let my tears damp my pillow. sobbing into it as i feel the pain inside my heart, knowing i am hurting her, that even though i know very well that this is all wrong i still keep on doing it. i love him but i can't hurt her, i wanted to stop but everytime he showed up outside my door i forgot that he wasn't mine. that i was ruining them. "why can't i just have you?" but everytime i ask myself that, her image cames to my mind, so vivid. and it reminds me why i'm not the one with taehyung.

that beautiful long blonde hair of hers, that glowing skin, that angelic voice, that plump pinkish lips, that flawless skin and face she has, that addicting scent on her, everything that taehyung can ask for. she has all of that and obviously she's a she. and even though it sounds crazy and selfish, i am wishing that i can have all of that, maybe if i have those things that she has maybe just maybe taehyung can love me too.

but i'm just jimin.

maybe i really am crazy? i walk confidently inside the building, greeting people i walk by. "good morning jungkook." i greeted once i get inside our own space, his eyes widen and mouth slightly agape, i chuckled at his reaction. "you~ you dyed your hair blonde." he said and stand up to touch my hair. i grin while staring straight at him. "am i beautiful?" i ask and flatter my eyelashes, seeing him blush makes my inside satisfied. "absolutely gorgeous." he said in awe still looking at me with a cute little smile on his face. "oh you also change your perfume." he comments, making me confused he still notice that? "uhm is it bad?" i ask suddenly feeling conscious about my self, why am i doing this?

"no, no. it smell good, sweet. but i like your old perfume better, it was more you." i was stunned but just ignore it. "well i just wanted something new." i smiled, he smiled back at me. "but you're still as beautiful as you are before." he said before going back to his chair. i wish i can appreciate myself just like the way jungkook do to me. but i wonder what will be his reaction if he sees the new me? i wanted to know that, to see his reaction. i wanted to hold him now.

it was my coffee break when taehyung sees me, his eyes widen for a few seconds before he smirk and walk towards me, subtly touching my hand. "you look so damn hot in blonde hair." he whispered, "ow and you smell so sweet today, it makes me wanted to taste you." he whispered again, as he grope my ass and give it a squeeze. my heart jumps in happiness as he compliments me. "you like it?" i smirk at him, he licks his lips and rakes his eyes up and down to me. "i love it."

"i'll go back to work. be ready when we get home." he said before throwing me a wink, i suddenly felt excited as i can't stop myself from smiling while walking back to my office.  "you seem enthusiastic today, that's good." jungkook said as he glance at me. "well it's just a good day." i answered and set my coffee down on my table and continue working. "hyung? are you free this weekend?" he ask, well i don't know really taehyung might want to spend it with me.

"i have something to do on weekends, maybe next time."

now you're getting ahead of yourself. i already warned you, but you just don't wanna listen. you're really getting yourself into a mess jimin. you're going to get hurt, so bad.