It has been four years. We have been so close to each other for all of those years that everyone thought we were dating when we really weren't. You and I were like Brother and Sister to each other, you had my back and I had yours. We were each others final puzzle piece. We completed each other, knew what each other was thinking without saying anything, thought the same things, we literally finished each others sentences. But was that enough for you?
What does he have that make you want him more than me? He has only been here a year and you only knew him for a few months. He lies and tells you that I talk bad about you when I really don't talk bad about anybody. So how could I talk bad about you? I fought for you constantly, I never gave up on you. He barely pays attention to you and only acts like he loves you when I am around because he knows it makes me mad. He knows how much history we have with each other.
You always say how you don't play games with people, but you're letting play you like how he looks at you, like a barbie. You say you don't want to get hurt but you choose him then tell me how it hurts you to stop talking to me. You say that you wont leave me then you go and believe the puppet master like you're a chess piece and he's controlling you're every move. BTW he plays a lot of chess and hes very good at it.
I am fine with all of it though. I am fine with being thrown away constantly. I am fine with not being believed when I am only telling the truth. I am fine with all of that because I am used to it all. I am used to being lied to, used, played, hurt, thrown away, beaten, spat on, getting called things. I have been my whole life. Although this hurts so much worse than all of that for some reason. It hurts that you don't trust me anymore. It hurts that I am nothing to you anymore. It hurts that my best friend/sister doesn't care anymore. It hurts not being loved by you anymore.
