-NoahDavis-
I ran out of the forest and up the steps of the school, I scanned the hallways and ran into the boys bathroom. I heard sobs coming from the last stall, I knocked quietly.
"Hey, are you okay?" I whispered, before I even knew what was happening I saw the door swing open to reveal...
-GageAdams-
I couldn't find him anywhere; I must have searched the school 5 fucking times. Why am I being so paranoid you ask? Because he is so fragile, I know he cuts. Wynter tells me everything about him, not to embarrass him but to help protect him. You see I am one of the only people Wynter trusts with Noah, which is a great thing. I just don't like people doing self-harm towards themselves, especially when it's someone I care about so dearly.
This morning when Jessica pulled me away, I felt really guilty. I should have stayed with him because I'm the one who invited him there! I feel so stupid. Anywhore, she pulled me away to make out I said no. So we really did end up talking, and I came to the conclusion that we needed to break up. All of my friends say she cheats, and I honestly wouldn't doubt it. Actually when I mentioned about breaking up she scoffed in my face and admitted that she fucked one of the football players. I really can't see myself dating a girl anymore; I have my eyes set on someone. I'm sure you would like to know, but I can't tell you. :3
After making one more trip around the school I gave up, I walked into the bathroom and sighed. I rested my back against the wall and sunk down to the floor; before I knew it I felt a tear drip down my cheek. I was crying? This guilt is eating away at me; I really think the reason why he was so on edge was because of me. I was the one who left him, he has abandonment issues. When his mother left him, Wynter said Noah took it to heart and blamed it on himself which was totally not the reason. So I guess when I left it brought back memories? I don't know, but I hope not. He should be able to trust me, and not have to worry about me leaving. I never will. I started sobbing, it’s my entire fault.
I heard the bathroom door open and shoes squeaking on the tiled floor, the person knocked on the door softly.
"Hey, are you okay?" My eyes widened, I opened the door and there stood Noah. I embarrassed him in a hug, he chuckled and squeezed me back. I couldn't help think about how well Noah fits in my arms.
"Holy shit, don't you ever run away like that again!" I exclaimed, he smirked and made a smart ass reply,
"Yes dad." My straight face faded into a smirk as well as I whispered,
"Asshole." And I walked right past him; he smiled and caught up with me. I remembered what was going on before; I immediately stopped and turned to Noah.
"Why did you run away?" I asked slowly, he stopped walking at faced me with his head down. He looked very pale and something was obviously bothering him.
"I-I'll tell you after school." Yes something is bothering him a lot, he must not want me to yell and draw attention to us. Is it something bad like he's moving!? Oh shit. He can't move, he means too much to me.
"Please don't tell me you're moving!" I blurted out; he chuckled and shook his head no. I sighed in relief but whatever it is, it must be something huge.
-NoahDavis-
Ugh, I feel horrible for keeping such a big secret away from him. Why didn't I tell him in the first place, it's not that hard to say to someone 'I'm gay' especially if he is your best friend. He just better not hate me for it. I walked away from him as he just stood there with a confused expression on his face.
Everybody ran out of the classroom since it's the end of the day and we all want to get home and relax, but me nope. I'm stuck with trying to tell my best friend I'm gay for the first time. Should I tell him that I found out today I was gay? Or just be honest with him? I thought about for a long time, debating whether or not to be painfully honest with him. If I tell him that I found out today, he wouldn't get mad at me for keeping it a secret. If I tell him I found out a couple of years ago, he could accuse me of not trusting him. Grr, this is so difficult. I walked to my locker, put my binders in and grabbed my backpack. Wynter came by to tell me he is going over to a friend’s house I just nodded and he ran off. I saw Gage at the school doors waiting for me. Should I turn around?
No Noah, you have to tell him. You will have to tell him eventually. Or someone else will..
That little voice kept whispering stuff in my head, well at least its not a voice which tells me to kill people. It's only trying to protect me, right? I sighed and continued walking towards the door. Gage noticed me and smiled. Oh that smile.
That smile which will never be mine. :c
