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5 | Never Again

Mötley Crüe was growing bigger every gig they got booked. Every gig they had they always said I had to be there in the crowd for some reason. I personally didn't like being in the crowd because I didn't like being surrounded by fucking groupies. Plus since most of the women didn't know Mick was my brother, they always thought I was another one of them. I always got nasty comments for the guys smiling at me, being able to 'sneak' back to their dressing room, and always being first at the front of the stage. I didn't let the boys know how it made me feel, nor will I let them know because it wasn't important to them. And this was their dream and I don't want to be in the way.

This past week we decorated the band's banner and at the moment we were painting mannequins with red paint. "Guys check this out!" Tommy showed us him smoking and breathing it back in through his nose. Nikki found it hilarious while I just smiled. "You okay Mel?" Nikki noticed my mood. "Yeah, umm for tonight's gig. I'm just going to wait in the dressing room till it's over." I let him know and he immediately stopped painting, putting the brush down. "Why? I thought you like watching us play. I like when you watch us from the front row." He quietly says the last part to me pulling me aside away from the others. "Oh I do, it's just... Nikki, those girls are too much for me. You guys like stuff like that, I don't because I hate getting pushed." I say walking away from him and out of the apartment.

"Mel!" Nikki rushes down the stairs to catch up with me on the sidewalk. "You have stuff to finish for tonight's show. Why are you following?" I sigh turning around to face him. "I know, but I want to make sure you are okay. What if I ask and make something happen for you not to get pushed tonight?" I roll my eyes shaking my head. "No, Nikki. You're a rock band, pushing in a crowd is normal at shows. I get you are trying to help me but I don't need your help." I turn starting to walk off but he grabs my arm stopping me.

"One more night in the crowd, then for the rest of this band's career you can stay back. For me please?" He begs me. "Fine." I give in. "Thank you. Now let's go back." He drags me back to the apartment. For the show tonight I stayed in the front on Nikki's side ignoring the comments and shoves. For the next show I remind Nikki our deal with me staying in the back. "Melissa, Nikki said you're staying back here tonight?" Mick asks, concerned about me. "Yeah, tonight's going to be the most it's ever been packed, and I don't want to be out there." I tell him and he messes with my hair. "Love you kid." He smiles leaving the room with everyone. "Good luck!" I yell as Nikki slowly closes the door behind him. "I'll miss you tonight." He winks at me, making me roll my eyes as the door shut.

Soon they start to play and the whole building cheers. I hate his ass. I get up heading out to the room going up to the balcony to watch some of the show. I knew it was still packed up there but there's less pushing compared to the front of the stage. "Excuse me." I make my way through people. I stay out to watch them play Take me to the top, Piece of your action, and On with the show before heading back.

Once the show ended they came back waking me up from my small nap. "Come on Mel! We're going out for drinks!" Tommy pulled me up from the chair I was just sleeping in. "Do I have to go?" I ask, not wanting to go. "Yes!" Vince smacks my ass leaving the room with Tommy and Mick. My eyes widen and I see that Nikki saw that too. "I just want to go back to your place and sleep." I whine walking to the door. "Come on Mel, loosen up with us tonight." Nikki wraps his arm around my shoulder. "I saw you up in the balcony." He pulls me into his side as we catch up with the others. "How did you see me? Those lights are bright?" He laughs. "You just stand out for me."

While at the table at the bar and grill, Tommy starts talking about girls and I leave to use the bathroom. When I came back I noticed a guy in my seat and the girl from under the table was still there. She scared him and he kindly turned down her offer. "Sorry was this your seat?" He asks me. "Yeah, but I'm fine standing." I reassure him. "Make room for my sister assholes." Mick says making the three other boys get closer and I sit next to the stranger. "So, what do you guys say? Do you want a record deal?" He asks them and my jaw drops.

"Ummm." Nikki says before banging Tommy's head on the table. "Is that a yes?" The dude next to me asks. "I don't know if we can trust a dude who turns down a free blowjob." Vince tells the man causing me to roll my eyes. "I'm heading home. See you later Mick!" I smile at my brother leaving the table heading to Nikki's alone.

When I get to the apartment I grab some alcohol the drink about 5 beers by myself before deciding to take a shower. Getting out of the shower I realize I forgot to grab some clothes but all mine were dirty. Well fuck me. They aren't here yet... so... I wrap the towel tightly around me making my way to Nikki's room looking for a shirt to wear. "I didn't expect this to be my welcome home gift." Nikki says, making me almost drop my towel. "Don't worry, Mick is out cold on the chair." Nikki smirks walking towards me. "I just need a clean shirt to sleep in tonight." I back up hitting his bed. You're fucked now....

He walks past me getting me one of his shirts handing it to me. "Are you going to put it on?" He asks, making me laugh. "Not when you're looking at me perv." I say and he doesn't turn around. I make sure that the towel doesn't move when I slide the shirt on top of me. Luckily it fell after I already pulled the shirt down. "You actually look sexy in my clothes." He checks me out. "Nikki, stop it!" I say hitting him only causing him to pin me down on his bed. "Please you drank too much." I turn my head away from him, which was a bad idea because I gave him access to my neck.

"Whether I drink or not, You still are sexy Mel." He kisses my neck and nibbles at my earlobe as I let out a small moan. "Hush, hush, Babygirl. You'll wake up Mick." He whispers as his hand makes contact with my thigh. I knew if I didn't stop him now, I was going to break at any minute. My body didn't want to move away from his touch, but I didn't want to be a one night stand. "We can't." I look him in the eye only making him push his pelvis closer to me. "Why not? You know, I know, we know, we want this to happen." He kisses along my jaw making me bite my tongue.

"Do we really know? Or is it our bodies sexual needs?" I ask, causing him to look at me confused. "I don't want to fuck up our friendship, or this bands relationship between you and Mick." I tell him. "We can still fuck and be friends while keeping it a secret from everyone." He smirks playing with the hem of his shirt I was wearing. "No Nikki, I won't let in. Plus we would get caught." I try to push him off me. "Not if you are quite silly." His hand travels up my thigh and a smirk appears across his face. "I forgot you're not wearing underwear." He whispers in my ear before kissing my neck once more.

This allowed him to take full control of me. I closed my eyes as he touched me so carelessly and somewhat in a respectful way. I was about to let out a moan but Nikki muffed it by kissing me softly. This is going too FAR!!! As much as I was liking this, I had to stop this before it got farther. I reach down and lightly touch his junk making him groan but I squeeze it hard making him roll over. "This is not happening ever again." I say making my way to the couch.