Suicide - soukoku

03

Okay but season 3 is wonderful :)

Chuuya:

A grin  plastered on my face, of course i hated dazai, but i loved him at the same time. I turn to the saide to see akutagawa standing at the doorway, i look down to see rashomon's shield up and stopping the blade " watch yourself next time, nakahara " he says walking away. I look down at a frustrated dazai as he pouts and mutters words like ' im gonna kick that brats ass ' and ' little shit never lets me die'. He pulls me up so i sit on his lap correctly, he sighs and brings his wrist out and gently unwraps his bandages, his wrist marked with scars but only 2 recent ones at the base of his wrist. " go ahead " he says, putting a hand on my waist. I lower the blade to his wrist and then i drag the tip of the blade across his pale skin. Beads of blood form and eventually drip down his wrist, i lick it, he let out a light moan, the blood tastes good like usual.  He pulls me into a kiss, my hand gripping his bleeding wrist. Dazai hated pain, it was weird for him to be enjoying this, let alone to offer his wrist. " chuuya, do you like it?" he says softly looking at my hands " oh, right yes " i said " give odasaku my appraisal ". i got off his lap and he laid down and held his wrist out. " fix me " he said, smiling. I kissed him and then proceeded to wrap his wrist again, red dripping through. He turned towards the window and sighed, i stood up and put the blade away, dazai was still on the bed now reading his suicide book, his wrist still out. I cuddled next to him as he read his book, his arm wrapped around me as soon as i laid down and continued reading his book.

Dazai:

I was extremely disappointed in  akutagawa for taking away my chance to die, i was planning on kicking him more next training. I hid my frustration and just let chuuya cut me which was awfully pleasureful, i almost came. I noticed chuuya who fell asleep smelling my jacket and cuddling my arm. I kissed his forehead and stroked his hair, his breathing was soft for the usual angry short brat. It brought a brightness to my mind. I slowly removed my arm from his grasp and left my coat there. I walked to moris office " wheres akutagawa ?" i asked peaking my head into the door elise sat in the room practically naked " mori sent him out" she said playfully as a loud elise chan could be heard from the closet " hurry before he comes back " i walked down the hallway and met with akutagawa " fuck you " i muttered then kicked him 10 times, he coughed " i've told you before dazai-san, your dying to my hand " he said coughing blood, i walked off pissed, i decided to try another suicide method in the meantime. I walk into the bedroom and pull out some rope and my suicide book, i begin to tie a noose, i thought we would be classic today with such a method. Completely forgetting chuuya is in the room his voice startles me " can you not try to die for a bit " he said, in a monotone