Jerrie Thirlwards

20.08.11☺️

"Morning girlies." I heard from behind me.

I felt butterflies in my stomach as I said "Morning" with the other girls.

I'd never liked a girl before. Maybe that's why everything's different - why I'm not as confident.

I wonder if it was her who cosied up to me last night. I hope she likes me too. She asked where the cereal was and so I showed her. My heart sunk a little when she said "Thanks." with no expression. I just smiled at her, staring into her hazel eyes.

She looked confused - her eyebrows raised slightly.

I went back into the room and so did Jade with her Coco Pops. She's so cute. She ate them tiny bits at a time. She couldn't even fit the whole spoon into her little mouth. I walked into the kitchen, grabbed myself a drink and then sat back down. Next to Jade. I slid over an inch every five minutes, so she hopefully wouldn't notice. She did. She looked at me, puzzled, and then went into the kitchen to wash her bowl. She came back in and sat far away from me.

I felt tears brimming in my eyes. I blinked quickly - Jade couldn't see me like this!

I've never felt this before. Never felt this sad.

I just want Jade. I love her. She is my queen.

I stood up and walked out of the main room to the hall. I ran upstairs and jumped on my bed, screaming into my pillow. I'm sorry this entry is so short - I just feel so stressed out today.