NOT A Story , its just who I Am

Help me

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Sometimes I feel like I'm not a human
Sometimes I feel like I'm a monster
Actually I'm a monster, my soul is a monster soul
It's my truth , nobody can explain how I feel
Haha , if I even have a heart to feel
I'm a "person " that always hurting everyone around him , I'm always hurting peoples especially my mom
Hurting peoples for me like drinking water , I can't feel it , I will hurt u if u say " hello " to me , not with my body , with my words ....
I wanna disappear , I don't wanna die ( but I deserve it) I love the life but I really need to disappear
My story isn't  a story
Its a hell
I'm an evil
LETS BEGIN