HER SEDUCTIVE BOYFRIEND

Part 9 - Let him go

I was waking up and I felt a warm body over me. I didn't open my eyes and wished it was all would be a nightmare. But I was wrong!

As soon as I open my eyes, I saw Joanne sleeping with me holding my back. I immediately got up from the bed and found myself nude. I quickly grabbed my inner clothes and wore them. And then I saw him. 

He was sleeping peacefully just like a kid. I have always seen Joanne as a rustic, strong, and demanding man who never gives up and always had his hand on the top. But now when I see him sleeping like this, I just wished this should not be a mistake. And I really wished he could be single and I never have to regret everything that happened between us last night! 

I snapped out of his thought and quickly I felt a slight pain of betrayal. Joanne cheated on Helen with me. And Helen is one of my friends. And this thought started to make me feel worse. 

"How did I let my dignity down? How did I make this huge mistake? How will I face Helen after this? How am I going to confess my mistake to my friends? And If I don't, what If they found this? But was Joanne telling the truth? Did he really love me? Even though, will Helen ever forgive me for spoiling her love life? If Joanne break-up with Helen for me, will she ever forgive me? How will she react? If I ever commit to Joanne, how will I walk along with him among my friends? " - All these questions started to pin my head and I felt a huge pain starting to form in my heart. 

And to all these questions, I realized only one single answer. I should stop this right here and right now. I can never be with Joanne. We can never tag along. He is my worst nightmare that ever happened to me and I can't betray Helen. 

I was in my own world thinking about all these and in a few minutes, I felt Joanne waking up. He came near me and kissed me back and greeting me, "Good morning beautiful...".

I didn't reply to him and I was staring at the floor silently and he came closer and started to snuggle in my neck. I moved away and said, "We should stop this."

"Seriously Maya? Again?" He asked me with an expression. 

"Yes and I really mean it," I responded. 

He got up from the bed and dressed. I thought he would be leaving but He came sitting next to me and held my hand. His touch always makes me forget everything and make me do the crazy thing, so I moved away and sat on the corner of the bed, far from him. He kept thinking and trying to initiate a conversation. He said, "See Maya..." 

And I stopped him right there, "Please Joanne. I am not in a state to listen to anything from you. Even if you break-up with Helen, I cannot have any relationship with you. I am far from being your girl. Do not try to convince me, Joanne, because I am not gonna change my mind on anything you say. I want to be loyal to my friends. It's not about you and Helen. It's about me and Helen. I cannot make myself look like a slut in front of the world, neither I am a gold digger. So leave from here right now and forget everything that happened last night." 

I thought he will interrupt my words, but he didn't and listen carefully to my every word while looking into my face. And that made me feel pity for him. This guy can have any girl whoever he wishes for, in his life or in her bed... But he chose me! He told me, he wanted me! and I refused him... My words are hitting him hard and I could see the pain in his eyes. He didn't answer anything. He just kept on staring at me. 

I just can't look at him anymore. I turned my face back. He then asked, "Is this what you really want Maya?"

I answered, "Yes"

He then said, "But I have seen that way you look at me, Maya." 

I replied, "That's all only in your head"

He furiously got up and replied, "Fuck, I can't do this right now. You want me to go. Fine. I will go away from you. Far from you. And you know what? I love you, and I will make you come for me." And with that said, he slammed the door and left the place... 

I felt cold... His words brought so much fear and pain to me. Because as much as I know him, He is a man of his words. But I have to do this. I felt my body shivering and I just felt all alone. I collapsed and crying the shit out of me. I heard Joanne starting his car and racing for a while and I knew the reason. He was waiting for me to look out through the window and I know, a mistake that is again repeated is a decision... A Decision which I will regret, so I never showed up. And he left. Maybe FOREVER!