Do You Still Need Me?. a zonah story

football practice

Two days later

Zach was at daniels football practice even though daniel is still very upset with him. Zach mostly watched Jonah he wasnt really giving any interest in the game and was mostly on his phone or doing random things. It was gray and gloomy outside zach kinda liked it that way it fit his mood. After practice zach and daniel were leaving but Jonah stopped zach who was slightly trailing behind daniel. "How much shit did I stir up for you?" Jonah asks zach looking into his beautiful brown orbs. "That's not important you make me happy thats all that matters" zach smiles at Jonah. Jonah glanced over.gis shoulder the hallways were empty or so he thought. Jonah pressed his lips against zachs soft pink ones zach gladly accepted and kissed back. Daniel who couldnt stand to see this stomped off to his car. About 5 minutes later zach got in daniels car a smile plastered on his face. Daniel didnt scream at zach like he felt like doing he just sighed and pulled out of the parking lot. The ride was silent and once home daniel still didnt say a word to zach. That night at dinner corbyn and jack talled to one another and the boy's but they found it strange how they werent speaking to the other. The truth was daniel felt guilty he saw how much zach seemed to enjoys jonahs company he saw his baby brother be kissed by someone who seemed to love him almost as much as he did. After dinner the boys went to their separate rooms zach lay on his bed trying his best not to smile thinking of Jonah and how his lips felt against his. Daniel on the other hand was feeling guilty as the thoughts ran through his head. "Zach can we talk?" Daniel asked knocking on the doorframe. "Yeah" zach said sitting up on the bed. Daniel closed the door with his foot and went and sat beside zach. "I'm sorry" daniel sighs looking at his hands. "Sorry for what?" Zach scrunched his eyebrows. "I'm a terrible brother I havent been fair to you i just worry that were not going to be as close as we used to be that your going to grow up and hate me for the things ive done the truth is I dont want you to change I just have to accept that your growing up and not going to need me as much as you used to" daniel explains biting his bottom lip slightly. "Dani your not a terrible brother your the best brother i love you and I still need you just as much as I used to i love you so much" zach says hugging daniel. Daniel smiled and wrapped zach up in his arms. The two boys feel asleep in zachs bed wrapped in one anothers arms. "Aww" Corbyn exclaimed when he saw the two boys "babe look how cute" corbyn said to jack who peaked his head in the door and smiled. " glad to see that their not fighting anymore" jack smiles pecking corbyns lips. The next day daniel had practice but zach didn't really wanna stay for it so he texted corbyn and asked if he could come and pick him up. Daniel understood and watched as zach walked out the front doors of the building. Once in the car corbyn asked why zach didnt call jack since he was off work today and corbyn wasnt but came and got zach anyways. "Why did you call me you know dads home today?" Corbyn asks pulling out of parking lot. "He wouldnt pick me up hed want me to "watch" the football game or somthing" zach mumbled "whatcha mean?" Corbyn asks slightly glancing at zach. "You know what i mean" zach looks over at corbyn. "No I actually dont tell me what you mean" corbyn asks curious about what his son was talking about. "Daddy wants me to be like Dani because daniels perfect but I'm not perfect daddy wants me to play sports but i don't like sports daddy wants me to be normal but I'm not normal in weird, im different, im dumb,stupid,ugly ,and a waste of human life nobody wants their kid to be a waste of time like I am" zach explains corbyns heart shattered as zach explained what he thought of himself. Zach... No your not a waste of time your perfect you and Dani were blessings that made me and daddys life so much better I dont want to hear you say that ever again" corbyn explains rubbing zachs knee. Corbyn dropped zach at home where jack was at not aware his youngest son was home corbyn went back to work for the next 2 and a half hours. Zach went up to his room and thats were he spend the two and a half hours while corbyn was at work and daniel was at practice jack didnt even know zach was home until corbyn asks what he was doing. That night corbyn told jack what zach told him in the car and jack felt so bad he didnt realize how he made zach feel he just wanted something they could have in common like him and daniel have football but him and zach barley spent time together anymore and it breaks his heart that he made zach feel those ways. Jack was going to have a talk with Zach and have a special day with zach corbyn told him to just wait until morning but he couldnt sleep without telling zach that he loves him and thst he cares for him. "Zach" jack says knocking on the doorframe of zachs bedroom door. Zach spun around in his wheel chair so he was looking at his dad. "Can we talk?" Jack asks already walking in and closing the door. Zach nodded and sat beside jack on the bed jack got right to the point "do you think I love daniel more than i love you?" Jack said wrapping his arm around zachs shoulders "n-not really" zach said looking down at his hands. "What do you feel then? Why do you think what you were telling dad?" Jack said rubbing zachs arm gently. "Your disapointed in me because I'm not perfect because I'm not like you" zach says quietly looling up at his dad. "Zach no no no I'm not disapointed in you if anything I'm very proud of you i love you with all my heart you dont need to be perfect for me to love you ill always love you and i will never stop" jack said picking zach up and setting him on his lap. "Why are you proud ive done nothing" zach looks into jacks eyes "I'm proud to be your dad you and Dani were two of the most amazing things that have ever happened to me ill always be proud of you no matter what" jack said kissing zachs forehead "your very special and mean everything to me please dont call yourself a mistake your a beautiful creation of God and I was just blessed I get to have you in my life." Jack smiles holding zaxh in his arms for the first time in awhile he hadnt even noticed the lack of time they had been spending together. Jack held zach until he was fast asleep in his arms after thst he gently tucked him in and lissed him goodnight