✿ Shatter Me || ♡ Cashby Austlan ♡

Hey guys! Yes, I'm in the process of making like a shit load of stories, but I just like, y'know, get excited and get a lot of ideas. This is based one a roleplay my friend and I are doing, but it's actually with a girl we made up with Austin. :) Halloween is coming up, and I'm so excited, because that's my favorite holiday and I always get decked out for it. This is based off of Halloween, so to my fellow horror movie nerds, I hope you enjoy this. 

I also got a tattoo, so. It's so cool! LOLOLOL I LOVE IT. Anyway. 

I hope you all enjoy this, because I'm excited for you all to read it.

Shatter Me is a song written by Lindsey Sterling and Lzzy Hale (you should go check it out!!!)

I do not own Austin or Alan, sadly. ;)

The introduction is Alan's P.O.V

(The cover photo was created by the lovely @kellinquinn <3

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He was constantly in my head, and it scared me. I didn't know who he was, where he was from, how old he was or even what his name was. He was just THERE, and he stared into my soul, and it made me feel like I was burning in the very depths of hell. The man never talked, only stared and pointed occasionally at me. He followed me everywhere, and it drove me insane.

My mom says that I need to go see a doctor, yet when I do, they say nothing was wrong with me, that I'm just simply dreaming. Excuse me, it's not a dream, it's a fucking NIGHTMARE. To have someone in my dreams that has no expression, no happiness running through out their eyes...

It was unnatural, scary and it made my blood boil.

I wanted it to all end, to all go away, but it wouldn't. The man came closer and closer with each night, and it made me paranoid. I didn't know what would happen when he finally reached me, but I didn't want to find out.

Mom says It's because of my anxiety, of my paranoia. That I'm stressed out about being alone with my friend that is usually always out partying, or too hyped up on drugs to even notice that I'm there. He wasn't the problem; Shayley was a good man that cared about me, but was too lost in his own problems to really ask what was wrong.

I wasn't taking any medicine or drugs to make me feel weird. I wanted to go to a hospital. I didn't feel safe in my own fucking home. 

Fuck, I wanted to rip my skin off my neck. I keep scratching at it, and it's becoming a bad habit of mine. I sometimes look into the mirror and I see flashes of HIM behind me. I wake up in the middle of the night thinking someone is going to break my window and come in, and I found myself actually believing that would happen.

I think one day my mom will learn the hard way that I need medical attention; TRUE HELP. 

I didn't want to live my life scared of an imaginary man that haunted me in my dreams. I didn't want to be scared of my thoughts, I wanted to be fun and happy. So why was there something being so persistent to stop me from achieving that?

Things have been getting weird around the town lately; missing people, animals being let out of their yards with no trace of foot steps... It seems like this town is cursed, and none of this even started happening until a girl named Laurie came into contact with me. I remember how dead she looked; her eyes held no life, and when she talked, she seemed like she dreaded every word that slipped from her lips.

I remember that she told me that she had a brother named Michael, and that he loved her very much. She held no love when she said that, and she paled in her skin as it seemed like someone was right behind her.

'Loves me... Very much...'

She walked off, and she was always just a familiar face I would see in the most random of places. 

That was the last time I saw her before she supposidly was kidnapped. 

I sit here writing in this journal mainly because I have no one else to tell this to, so, if anyone were to come find this, I want you to know that whatever you do, don't look into his eyes.

Don't look into his eyes. 

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So, what do you guys think? Hehe, this is gonna be rad as hell. Okay so to clear things up, the man is Austin, and you'll learn into future chapters what Alan see's and why Austin is seen as a bad character. I hope I pleased y'all ;) don't forget to smile, chin up, and show the world what you're fucking made of.

Rock on.

Sam <3