Letters To Faith

Chapter One

☁︎chapter one☁︎

☁︎faith☁︎

I picked up a tissue and wiped my eyes. Why did John Green have to write 'The Fault In Our Stars' and why did it have to become a movie? I personally feel like writing to John Green himself saying 'uhm you do realise that you've made everyone in the world lose their soul right?'. I continued to let the tears fall out of my eyes as the film illuminated my dark room.

"Maybe okay will be our always." I heard Augustus say and that made me cry even more, just knowing that he's going to be dead at the end. This is my fifth time watching it and I still don't know why I keep on torturing myself. He's just so perfect, and then there's Hazel. She's so beautiful. I wish I was that pretty.

Sigh.

I checked the time and saw that it was almost half eleven. I finished my quiet sobbing and turned my laptop off and put it on my white desk. I looked at my bed and saw that it was practically white because of all the tissues that were lying on it. I pushed them all onto the floor on one side of my bed and crawled under the covers. I curled up in the sheets and felt my Disney onsie rub softly against my skin. I closed my eyes and covered my body from shoulder to toe with the duvet, letting the darkness descend over me.

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I woke up at 6:31 in the morning to start getting ready for school. I plugged my headphones into my phone and started to play some music. I turned my hair straighteners on and as I waited for them to heat up, I picked out an outfit from wardrobe. I chose a black and white stripy tee shirt to go with my light skinny blue jeans, dark red neck scarf and a pair of black combat boots.

I laid them out carefully on my bed and sat back down on the floor again, in front of the mirror to straighten my hair. I picked up the straighteners and began to work on my hair.

After finishing off my hair, I stood up and got out of my onesie. After putting on my underwear and bra, I clothed myself fully with my chosen items. I checked the time on my phone and saw that it was seven already. I walked down the stairs and made some toast and jam. As I crunched on some toast, my mum and dad walked in together, my mum holding a mug of tea and my dad holding the newspaper under his arm.

"Morning." I greeted them and continued eating my food.

"Good morning, hun." My mum kissed the top of my head and I smoothed out my hair after she did so. I sipped at my orange juice and pulled my phone out of my pocket. I went onto Snapchat to see that no one had messaged me.

As usual.

I put my phone away and quickly finished off my toast. I put my plate and cup into the sink and ran upstairs. I grabbed a black backpack and filled it with my books for the day. I made sure I had everything in it that I needed and walked over to my mirror.

I picked up a waterproof mascara and stroked it onto my eyelashes. That was my makeup for the day. I left my room and went into the bathroom to clean my teeth. As I brushed my teeth, I went on my phone one last time to go onto Instagram and look at my page. Nothing. I turned my phone off and shoved it back into my pocket.

I walked down the stairs and said goodbye to my parents. They bid me goodbyes and hoped that I had a good day today.

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"Hey, sweetie. How was your day?"

"Yeah, it was alright." I shrugged, as my dad handed me a mug of tea. I sipped from it in silence as he continued to make conversation with me.

"Any homework?"

"Yeah, I'll go up and do it now." I walked from the kitchen and grabbed my school bag in one hand and held my tea in the other.

I entered my room, after walking up my stairs, and sat down on my bed, getting my homework out. I laid it around myself and sighed loudly. Here goes time that I'll never get back.

☁︎unedited☁︎