for a better tomorrow

chapter 5

Mom is tht u? Yes baby girl itz me. Why r u doing thiz to urself? I know life has been hard but it'll get better. U gotta stay strong the ppl around u depend on u to hold everything 2gether. I gotta go now I love u bby girl I always will. Just remember to get sumthn outta everything. And be careful who u trust not everyone is ur friend. She turned around and walked away. MOM WAIT!.... NOOO NOT AGAIN... PLZ DON'T LEAVE ME ALONE AGAIN... PLZZ MOM!!...PLZ JUST TALK TO ME.... MOM. She was slowly disappearing. I love u too mommy. I didn't even know if she heard me or not. I wanted to chase after her but my body wouldn't move. I guess she was goin sum place I couldn't go yet. I woke up to my phone ringing. Tht was the first time I ever dreamed about my mom. I didn't understand wat she was tryn to tell me. I loked down at my phone to ce a text from Jo Jo I need u and yo girl to go to thiz place and be there by 12pm 2nite. I was down to go. But I don't think ronni was gone cum. Tee woke up after I did. U gud? he asked Lokin around tryn to see who was all still there. Yea im just...yea im gud. Cum on everybody gone be hungry when thy wake up Tee said tryn to count all the heads tht was there. I went to the bathroom to brush my teeth when I saw her blood was still on me. I went to Mike's room and got sum clothes. Ronni and Mike  Was still sleep. I left the room and closed the door behind me. I went back in the bathroom washed up and changed. I put the clothes I had on in a bag. I went outside to meet up wit tee. Watz tht tee asked. Just sum stuff from last nite. He took the bag and said he'll take care of it.

*tee*

The next morning I woke up. Last nite was crazy.  My bestf almost died. Nia basically saved his life. She fell asleep next to me. I Woke up when I heard her phone going off. I was happy nia saved his life but I wanted to know how she knew wat 2 do. I didn't even know wat to do. Nia and ronni left and when thy came back last nite thy was all bloody and the lok on thy faces. I already knew wat thy did. Itz a lok ill never forget. I had tht lok 2 many times. I can't even lie thy did sum real boss shit which made me wanted to make nia mine's even more.  She could hold her own. So nia how u knew to do all tht shit last nite. I didn't it just all kind of came to me in the moment I  wasn't finna let mike die not lik tht. I already lost my mom lik tht. Plus ronni would have lost her mind if mike would of died in front of her. She said Lokin out the window. Is sumthn wrong wit u? I had to ask she lok to lost. Y would u think sumthn was wrong wit me im fine. She said still Lokin out the window. I been around u to much I can till wen sumthn is on yo mind. I had a dream about my mom and she talked me. She walked away from me and I couldn't even move it was lik sumthn was holding me back. Idk I can't really remember to much about her but I mixx her. Nia still wasn't Lokin at me. So wat ur mom say. She loked at me and loked back out the window.  I guess tht was her way of telling me I needed to stfu and stop asking questions. The drive was quite. I hated seeing her lik thiz but it wasn't shit I could do. I had to get my clothes from my house. I felt dirty af walkn around in the same shit I had on the nite be4. We got back to Mike's house just in time everybody was just waking up. Nia went in Mike's room.

*nia*

Me and tee got something to eat from MacDonalds for everybody.  When we got back to Mike's house after he went home and got sum clothes everybody was just waking up. I couldn't eat if Mike wasn't ok. So I went to check on him. When I went in his room ronni was standing over Mike crying. I walked over to Ronni thinkin the worst. Ronni itz gone be ok. I loked at Mike and he was smiling at ronni. Thank god he was gud. I mean all tht blood he lost I was sure he wasn't gone make it. Mike u ok can u get up. Mike sat up in the bed. Wat happened fuck my shoulder hurts. Mike said holding his shoulder. Boy yo slow axx wasn't tht fuckn drunk. I was crying.  I was happy to see him up and acting lik himself.  Come on Mike I think everybody wanna see u. Wat u mean everybody. He said not even knowing how many ppl was at his house.  Mike walked out the room wit a lost lok on his. Damn wat yall all here for. Mike said Lokin around at everybody.  Mike u got shot last nite. everybody stayed over to make sure u was ok. Mike sat down at the table and everybody told him wat happened.  Me and tee was standing up by the door.  Tee didn't think he was make it to see 2day either.  Tee kissed me and said thanks. Cuz if it wasn't for me Mike would of been gone right now. Mike came over to me and hugged me. Mike? Thanks fr fr. Mike said still hugging me. I guess nobody told him about wat me and ronni did. One of the guyz tht was wit us I think his name was tony walked up to mike. My nigga u got u a real one on god yo girl is wit the shits. Thy did sum real boss shit if u....mike cut tony off. Mike loked at me. I put my head down. Thn he loked at ronni.  WTF DID YALL DO! Nothing mike. We just did wat we had to. He loked at ronni the whole time. He started to walk back in his room. Wait Mike let me explain. Tee grabbed me and pulled me back let me talk to him. Mike don't be lik tht. Thy did wat thy thought tht had to. Tee said walking up to mike. Why u didn't stop thm u already.... Tee u should of stop thm. Mike was mad af. This is why he never really wanted us around he knew all the shit we could get into. He knew we wasn't ready for thiz lifestyle but shit me and ronni wasn't ready for a lot shit tht had happened to us. Mike went in his room and closed the door. Tee took a shower the girls got a ride from Tony. Everybody was goin to go home and change and come back to Mike's house.