for a better tomorrow

chapter 6: lovin other more thn urself

I'm listening tee… wtf u gotta say about this shit. Tee better have a gud axx reason for y he had this bby. Tee was still holding both of my hands down which meant he was gonna tell me sum bullshit. Bae don't get mad ight lok the bby'z mines ight. Thatz my daughter. I didn't tell u cuz I didn't know how u was gone react. Bae I'm sorry I should of told u as soon as I found out. Tee said still holding me. All I could do was cry. I was so mad and shock at the same time. My body was stuck. Tee fr wtf y would u lie about yo bby? I said trying my hardest to get him to let me go. I didn't lie. I just found out a few weeks ago. I had to make sure she was mines be4 I told u. Tee said lokin me in my eyes. I don't  care let me go tee fuck u I'm done. Plz let me go. I said cryin and tryin to pull my arms loose. Bae no talk to me I love u and im not finna let u end thiz over nothin dum. Tee said gettin mad. But none of it matter he hurt me. I just sat there and cried. He was holdin me the whole time. All he kept sayin was tht he was sorry. I asked him if it was anything else he needed to tell me...He said there's nothin else. We walked to my car. And tee drove me home. I couldn't stop crying. I just liked out the window. I wanted my mom now more then ever. I just loked up at the sky hoping she could hear my cries. We got to my house and walked inside. I went straight to my room. Ronni saw me crying and followed me. I laid across my bed, ronni came in and sat down next to me and said watz wrong wat happened. Ronni itz his bby i said lokin up at her. Tee came in my room I loked at him and put my face back in my pillow. Ronni could u give us a min. Tee said. Hell no u got her fucked up tf u thi...I had to cut ronni off. It fine ronni. U sure? Yea Ronni just give us a min. ight girl. She left the room lokin tee up and down. Tee closed the door and layed next to me and said Im sorry nia. He kissed my head and was holding me. As I layed there cryin I realize. Im nia wtf am I doin crying over thiz nigga I love him but I been thru worst my life has just started. I sat up and went to the bathroom, I took a shower and by time I came out thiz nigga was still here. I thought he would of left by now. Don't u got a bby to go home to. I said lokin him up and down shakin my head. Tee tried to say sumthn but I wouldnt let him. I put on sumthn to sleep in. Right wen I was finna lay down. Ronni came in my room wit the phone jo jo gave her in her hand. She told me to get dress. I loked at her. I was lost. She threw the phone to me, we gotta go cum on. I realize wat the hell she was talkin about so I hoped up and threw sum clothes on and put sum clothes in a bag. Tee I'll be back a min. ight? Where u goin. Tee said gettin out the bed. Just sum where wit ronni. I ran out side to meet ronni be4 tee could ask anything else. Girl jo jo could of told us a hour or two ago. Ronni said speeding down the street. Ik but shit we almost there. Where got to thiz hotel we changed be4 we went in. We was strippers but we dressed lik we was goin to normal party. We walked in and went all the way to the top floor. We seen D she told us we didn't have 2 stripe today we just had to keep thm company. Which was even better for us. We walked in to thiz big axx room. It was other girl we worked wit there and idk who these nigga where but thy was coo. But one was sitting by himself in the corner. So I walked over to him. Hey mind if I sit next to u. Nah I heard about u LA girls. He said lookin me up and down. He was cute dark skin tall and could dress. O really so wat u heard? Yall will doin thing for a nigga if he got money. He said as he took a sip of his cup. Now most girls would of slapped the shit outta of him. But I laughed I thought it was funny. Idk who told u tht but thy ain't never meet me sooo. He smiled and said his name was chuck. I told him I was keke. I never give these dudes my real name. We sat there talkin most of the nite. He was funny and he was really coo. He asked for my number. He said he wanted me to do a party for him so I gave him my number. Thiz way I aint have to pay jo jo shit cuz he wasn't gone know. He gave a roll of money. Lol watz thiz for? U sat here and talked to me thtz all I wanted these other females just wanted to fuck me. He said lokin around at everyone. Which was true most of the time when itz cum to nites lik thiz thtz all the niggas want to do. Thy probably thought he was lik thtz too. It was gettin late so I told D I was out. She was cool wit it. I had to find ronni axx first tho. I asked around if anyone had seen her. This girl we called her honey said she went to the back wit sum dude. I went to find her be4 she did anything stupid. I went to back room to ce thiz bitch taken off her clothes. She was drunk af I mean white girl wasted. I grabbed her and put her shirt back on her. Cum on we goin home. The guy grabbed my axx and said I paid her already so one of y'all better ge th... I slapped the shit outta him. Be4 he say anything else. We was walkin out the door wen he pulled me by my hair. Chuck pushed him off of me. Yall gud he'z just drunk. I finally got ronni in the car. I drove home fast she was not finna throw up in my car. When we got home I put her in bed. thank god mike wasnt home yet he would of been mad af. He hates wen ronni gets drunk. I took a shower and went to lay in my bed when I seen tht tee was still over. I layed down next to him. He asked me where I went...I told him just to nae'z. He kissed me and he went to. Atfer staying up for about any hour I finally went 2 sleep. Nia bby itz ok u will get thru thiz. I promise it will only hurt for now. My mom was sitting on my bed. But how can u be so sure. I love him mom but idk if im ready for thiz. I said crying as  I layed my head on her lap. He loves u too. He just dont know how to show it. Give him another chance. My mom said as she rubbed my head. She loked back, I have to leave again but ill be back real soon. I sat up she hugged me kiss my head told me she loves me and left once again. I love u too. I woke up to tee phone ringing. He was sleep so I answered it.