One Diretion One Shots

I'll Kiss You Forever Baby (Niall)

Although the sun seemed to shine a bright yellow glow to everyone else I couldn’t help but notice how dim it always looked to me. As much as the sky cleared for its rays, never has it been so dark in my mind.

All I heard were the sounds of people cheering about the beautiful day among us and frustration built within me knowing my depression hid it all from my own eyes.

I played gently with my bracelets covering my many scares, some old, some new, some an act of release and some…an unsuccessful attempt.

Most people saw me as being lucky, I had boyfriend whom every girl could only dream of, but in my life reality. I couldn’t wish for a better man in my life, he treats me so well always trying to protect me and assure no harm ever comes my way. But what he doesn’t know is that there is harm that he can’t quite protect me from. I’ve kept it a secret from him as long as I can, I’m scared that once he finds out about my scars…my attempts and my worsening depression that he will see how broken I am and realize how much better he can actually do.

The thought of losing him scares me, what I would do if he left would probably be the last thing I ever did.

My mind was rushing with thoughts…unhappy thoughts and my body naturally reacted in the only way it knew how when this happened. Standing up my legs took me to washroom where I pulled out the blade I had carefully hidden from him. I slowly slid myself down the wall and took my bracelets off one by one elongating the process knowing I was going to dread what I was about to do after I did it.

The second I descended the blade toward my arm I heard someone call my name and footsteps coming up the stairs. By the time my mind registered exactly what was happening I saw the bathroom door being thrown open and his crystal blue eyes came into view a beautiful smile written across his face, until horror replaced it mirroring mine.

I froze not knowing what to do, my eyes began to sting and slowly created a shiny coat of water as my tears pooled up, readying themselves to spill.

“MyChelle…what-why?” His eyes searched mine in confusion as his hands fell to his side.

“I-I just…” I suddenly dropped the blade as my body began convulsing into a violent sob. Letting out cries while my eyes burned of the salty discharge.

I felt two strong arms suddenly wrap themselves around me holding me as tightly as they could. He pulled me onto his lap making “shhh” sounds as he rocked me back and forward slowly.

After a few moments my breathing began to regulate and I felt him pull away.

He placed his face in front of mine and I turned away avoiding any eye contact, too ashamed to face him.

“Look at me” reluctantly; I shook my head as I roughly wiped the stray tears under my eyes.

I heard him make a “tsk” noise. Suddenly I felt him grab my legs repositioning me so that I was now straddled over his thighs when he was sitting on his knees; he then grabbed my chin to force me into facing him.

Once our eyes met, I saw sadness and worry dripping from his own crystal orbs. My heart instantly melted as I knew it would once I looked into them. I felt his hands reach up and he settled his palms against my cheeks using his thumbs to wipe my cheeks gently as his eyes roamed my face.

I closed my eyes and my breath hitched in my throat at the contact. His voice pulled me out of my trance and brought me back to realize what was happening.

“Why Chelley?… Why would you do this?” he slid his hands down my arms and I sighed at his loving touch. They gently continued until tracing my wrist. He flipped them up to see my harsh scars appear in front of him. His eyebrows knitted together, he began to trail his finger tips over them, tracing the lines. I hissed looking down at my wrists and looked back up to see him wince as if feeling it also.

“I …I’m just sad Niall…I can’t explain it” His face shot up immediately a look of horror written on it.

“Is it me? Am I doing this to you? Did I-“

“Oh my god no!” I shook my head quickly. A sudden smile pulled at the edges of my lips thinking about him. “Niall…You’re the best thing I have in my life. You’re one of the reasons I’m still here…” I whispered the last part as I looked down avoiding his eye contact.

He pushed his hands up to my waist and pulled me closer to him and I wrapped my arms around his neck. I looked up to meet his eyes, they had a warming gaze in them and I sighed as I relished in the comfort of them around me.

“Promise me something babe?” He leant his forehead against mine. “Promise me you will never do this again”

“Niall-“ I breathed.

“Promise.” He insisted.

I took a deep breath knowing how much of a challenge it was going to be, I couldn’t just …stop!

His eyes were begging me for an answer, an answer that I was reluctant to give.

He sighed and looked up as if thinking; he then looked down with a glint in his eye.

“When are you happy?” He blurted. I looked at him in confusion.

“What-“

“I mean, what is it that makes you happy Chelley?” His eyes were waiting in anticipation for my answer.

Without hesitation it came flying out of my mouth

“You”

I watched his eye light up and his lips slowly shaped the godly smile that never failed to reflect to make my heart flutter.

He gently leant his face in toward mine whispering “I love you” against my lips right before crashing them down to mine. The kiss was forceful but held a powerful meaning to it. Letting me know how much I meant to him, something better left unspoken.

I smiled throughout the kiss and felt his lips do the same as he repeatedly pushed down onto mine.

He slowly leant back and laid one last, light kiss to my lips. The smile I had didn’t falter, only he could do this…And I loved him for it.

“Actually…” I breathed out slowly, still catching my breath from the kiss. “That’s what makes me happy” I giggled lightly as I licked my lips feeling the light tingle still present from him.

He grinned toward me and hugged me tighter; my head fell and rested in the crook of his neck as my arms wrapped themselves around his torso.

He leant down and held his lips on my forehead, whispering the words I will never forget…

“I’ll kiss you forever baby”