Unfaithful (On Hold)

Chapter 4

Serena

Pain. Pain is all I wake up to. What happened? Did the ritual work? It must have, since my body feels as if I got ran over by a freight train. My eyes blink slowly, scanning my surroundings. I'm in the pack hospital and I notice no one is in the room. The clean white is making my eyes slightly hurt. I slowly try to move up the bed and sit up but I scream lightly at the pain. Fuck!

I move the hospital gown away from my chest and tears soon well up into my eyes. A scar has formed, seemingly in the middle of my heart. It tells of my heart breaking at the lost of my mate. But I know I will overcome this. I have to. Or the darkness in the back of my mind will soon take over me and I will no longer be a werewolf. I would be a wolf with a dying wish.

I hear the knob of the room slowly turn and in walks in Alexander, in his hands are flowers and candy. He eyes widen and he rushes towards me. I feel the falling of the flowers and candy in his hands on me as he hugs me tightly. I hug him as strong, perhaps even stronger. Tears escape from their prison of my eyes, and fall onto him.

"Serena, you got the whole pack worried. Are you okay now?" Alexander pulls away and cups my head in his hands. He wipes the tears from my cheeks and I laugh unemotionally. That's a loaded question isn't it? Asking if someone's okay after their heart now has a crack in it. If they will survive these next couple of days or will the succumb to the numbing pain. Alexander looks into my eyes and sighs. He pulls back and sits in the chair by my bed, holding my hand in his.

"Serena, I know this will be hard but you will get through this. You just need-"

"What do I need Alexander!? Hmm? I'm as good as dead! You might as well kill me now! I'm not worth this! The pack is losing the Beta couple, I feel so alone, and I'm leaving my whole life behind! What do I need!? Hope? I had hope months ago but hope didn't do shit for me! Leave!" My anger flares and I snap at Alexander. His eyes filled with darkness and he stares at me in anger but also another emotion. Pity. That's all this pack does. Pity poor Serena since her mate cheated on her. She must not be good enough. And I know that. I'm not good enough for a mate.

"Serena, you may be considered a sister to me but I will not have disrespect. Am I understood?" He stands and starts walking towards the door. "I asked you a question Serena. Am I understood?"

"Yes Alpha," I whisper, feeling my anger diminish but my tears comes back with a vengeance. My emotions are all over the place. My thoughts are broken with the slam of the door. And I begin to do what I've been doing for the last couple of weeks before the ritual. Scream my pain to the Moon.
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I walk out the pack house with fake confidence. People have always said to fake it till you make it. Let's hope I'm putting on a good show for the pack. They're here to send me off, a somber occasion. The sun is its companion to this occasion, giving such an ironic scent in the air. I inhale the air of my pack, a wobbly smile on my face. I will never forget this scent. My pack have tears in their eyes, children not really understanding why their Beta Female is leaving them.

I walk close to the car where Ashlynn, Alexander, and my parents are. My father holds my mother close to him, her sobs filling the air. The darkness in me inches it's horrible body closer to my brain but I go to fight it back. I refuse to die being a wolf with nothing. I have something. I hope. Ashlynn envelopes me in her arms, whispering words of strength in my ear.

"Pack mates, you will see the loss of one of the best Beta Female this pack has ever have. She has supported this pack, never holding back. And...I...I," Alexander stammers and I could hear the emotion in his voice. "Serena, I have and will always love you like a sister. You are always welcome back here. Just remember to have hope."

If I were in my wolf form, my fur would've bristle at his last word. Hope. What is hope truly. How could you have hope for something so horrible. My heart has cracked and I'm not sure what will fix it. Will hope fix it? That's opportunistic. My heart will never be repaired and I think the pack all knows that, even Alexander. They know hope on something so delicate, so painful will never work. But I accept his words and run into his arms. I smell his familiar scent and try to memoize it.

I may be welcomed back to this pack but I will not return. Why return where my heart has been broken many times? That's a fate where I would not even wish on my worst enemy. The pack surrounds us and  we all hug, trying to not think about what's about to happen.

I look over the heads of my pack and I see Philip being held back by a female warrior. His head is dropped over, his hair covering his face. He shudders every few seconds. Seems the breaking of the bond has affected him greatly. I may sound evil but I'm glad he's hurt. Then, he will know the pain of what I went through. He deserved it. Now both of our hearts are broken and he will suffer while I hopefully rise up from the darkness. I know he won't survive the darkness overtaking him. He will soon become a full wolf and die. His human instincts will no longer be there.

The pack pulls me from my dark thoughts and they back away from me. They bow their heads to me and start chanting.

"Te semper erit nostris Beta Feminam."

"Te semper erit nostris Beta Feminam."

"Te semper erit nostris Beta Feminam."

My eyes well up with tears once again but I know no more tears will fall. I have only one final thing to do before I begin my new life.

"Esther Fontes, please step up," I call onto one of my elite wolf. Her dark brown eyes stare at me in surprise but she still walks towards me, uncertain about what I am going to say. "I know make you the heir to Betas. You are now the Beta Female."

A pin drop could be heard as I feel some of my power transfer to Esther. I move to the driver side of the car and step in. I pull away from my life and start going down the dirt path, leaving my family and everything I know. That was the last thing I gifted to my pack. A Beta Female who will do anything to protect the pack and make sure training to going well. I have full trust in her. Now, it's time to meet my new pack. The East Pack.
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Hello there! I hope many of you remember this book. I know I took it down and it's been awhile. I decided to revisit this book and actually do this. I want to finish this book.