Unfaithful (On Hold)

Chapter 6

Serena

Change is something that is so unfamiliar for me, but I don't hate it as much as I thought I would have in the back in my old pack. The only thing I can do is to just move forward and continue to improve myself. Forget about all the things holding me back, like the people in the North Pack and him. I can only wonder what happened after I left. Is he dead? The other women must be or facing severe punishments. 

I just miss my parents and my pack. The North Pack has been my home for so long and to leave due to the infidelity of him. I'm not sure what I want for myself.  There's so many questions that I want answered. I can only hope that what the Moon has planned for me, that it'll be something good and what exactly I need. Moon only knows what I need in my life right now. 

A knock interrupts my thoughts and I accidentally let out a low growl. Many people know not to disturb a she-wolf when she is getting used to her new area. Trying to map out everything and know what will eventually needs to be changed in the area. I quickly stand up and make my way to the door, knowing whoever is behind the door can sense me coming. I take a deep breathe, trying to find my courage and also smell who it is. The scent is unfamiliar to me, causing my shoulders to tense and my eyes slightly narrow. The scent smells like lavender, nothing really else to just lavender. A female, most likely. I open the door and see an Asian woman with a bright smile and beautiful dark brown eyes with black hair. Her hair seem so silky and comes to her shoulders, drawing attention to her mark on her neck. Mated, hmm. I want to feel the scar from the mark no longer on my neck but I hold myself back.

"Hi, my name is Sakda! I'm here to welcome you here and hope you would join me and the other she-wolves on for a run around the pack. We can all get familiar with each other and get to know each other. Please, please say yes!" She speaks in a very fast tone and it overwhelms me greatly. Everything is happening so quickly and I feel as if I have to run to keep up everything going on around me. But, I feel protective over the woman in front of me and so I just nod my head, earning a squeal from her. She pulls me for a hug, causing me to tense even more. It seems like I would have to get used to hugging from this she-wolf. 

"Great! I swear we're all friendly and we all look at for each other. So, your name is Serena right?" She says, pulling me out of the room without a thought and shuts the door. She truly knows what she wants.

"Yes, it is," I say softly, cringing internally about how I am acting. Why am I being so weird while being around this she-wolf? I was never liked this when I was around the North Pack's she-wolves. I must continue to get used to this pack. It's my new home now so I must be more comfortable with being myself. Will I truly be who I am after what happened? Time will only tell. 

"Great! Your name means serene right? I guess that's how you got your name right? Sorry I'm asking so many questions, it's been so long since there has been a new she-wolf in the pack. Moon, I'm so excited!" She yells excitedly as we walk away from my cottage and towards a clearing full of other she-wolves. I feel my heart start to beat faster and my palms starting to be full of sweat. I'm nervous to know what the other she-wolves will think of me. Will they think of me as someone who needs to be looked down on since my mate was unfaithful to me? Will they regret trying to accept-no I need to think lighter thoughts.

We stop in front of the large group of she-wolves, a woman in the front of the pack. The Alpha Female from the smell and sensation I get from her. I bow my head towards her, like I did when I first arrived with the Alpha. She growls, appreciating the respect I am giving her. Every Alpha loves respect and will fight for it. She lifts my head with her hand, a serene look covering her tan skin. She seems to be Hispanic with her skin color and her dark features. 

"I am assuming Sakda has already told you that you are invited to join our run and get to know us. My name is Mariposa, the Alpha Female of the East Pack. You may call me Mari, if only you're comfortable. I hope you will like living here and you must know you can come to me or Sakda about anything," her motherly tone surrounds us, even if she seems to be the same age as me. I feel the tension from my shoulders release and I nod slowly at her words. She smiles and slowly leaves me with Sakda as she walks into the middle of the group of she-wolves, them parting and bowing to her. I feel the respect everyone has to her and the respect she has to these she-wolves. 

"Ok I'm not sure how they did this in your old pack, but she usually shifts first and howls, allowing everyone to shift alongside her and we all run. I hope you can keep up with us Rena! Is it ok if I call you Rena? I might end up doing it either way!" Sakda gives me puppy eyes and I let out a small laugh and nod, a small smile on my lips. 

This is my new start to life and I can only hope things will continue to be great. 

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Hours later, I'm back in my cottage, feeling a bond form between me and the she-wolves. Mariposa led us everywhere, burning our energy and showing me the pack. I've learned Sakda is the Beta Female and has been in this pack for the last 5 years, moving from the West Pack to here after finding her mate when he was on a diplomatic meeting. 

There was so many names said and so many stories told about the many she-wolves living on this land. I will never be able to remember so many names, but I'm determined to do so. I sit in the living room, smiling softly at the new bonds I feel forming. So many smells are now ingrained into my head and heart.

I feel I could find true joy here and forget about him. My smile disappears when I think about my-no he's no longer my male. I need to get that through my head. He was never my male and he will never be anymore. He's dead, he's most likely dead. I chant that through my head but I can't help but feel my eyes water.

How can he give up being mates for a few minutes of pleasure due to the fact that you're a temporary Alpha? I need to realize, I am enough but I'm not enough for him clearly. The Moon did make a mistake with setting us up together. We were supposed to crash and burn from the beginning. Maybe this was a test to prove myself to the Moon? To prove that I am warrior and I am strong

 I will teach myself to fight against my inner self who doubts everything. Will I make it is the only question in my head. 

Am I strong enough to make it?

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This feels weird, typing on my laptop, not on my phone. It's a nice change since I feel like I can type faster on here than my phone. Anyway here's another update! What did you think of this chapter? I feel like some things can be changed but I wanted to get this out there and continue to work on the next chapter of the book! 

Also, how the hell did I get 17,000 reads?! Holy shit how is that possible at all?! Thank you for all the reads and when I saw the number, I texted a friend and started to cry. It's...just unbelievable. I never, ever expected this when I started this book. I thought I'll be lucky to even get 100 reads but here we are! Just thank you so much! I've been having an emotional week and seeing that number has made me so happy, something that hasn't happened since we all started to practice social distancing.

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