TUESDAY, 18:45
- NEW MESSAGE FROM: oldhyun💖 -
(jae's phone)
oldhyun💖
something doesn't feel right
oldhyun💖
are you okay?
Me
mhm
Me
i'm great
oldhyun💖
you're lying.
oldhyun💖
please, just tell me the truth. i love and care about you, i just want to help
Me
i'm good, okay?
Me
what about you? has your dad done anything today?
oldhyun💖
would you listen to me?
oldhyun💖
fucking hell
oldhyun💖
i'm not important right now
oldhyun💖
i'm worried about you, okay?
oldhyun💖
despite my own issues, i've always been so worried
oldhyun💖
you've never been quite alright. and i think i made things worse when i was a dickbag to you a few weeks ago
oldhyun💖
let me help you
oldhyun💖
i can't sit here and act like everything's okay when i know there's something wrong
oldhyun💖
please. tell me.
Me
i feel so guilty
Me
but
Me
i want to die
Me
...it's always been that way, i guess
Me
even though things are sorta okay right now, i can't help but want to jump off the bridge downtown
Me
pick up a knife in my kitchen and just, end it all
Me
i hate it so much
Me
things are okay, things are fine, but why am
/i/ not fine?
oldhyun💖
you shouldn't feel guilty, it's not your fault
oldhyun💖
it's just how you feel. that's it.
oldhyun💖
it fucking sucks but it's just how it is regardless of how life is going
oldhyun💖
mental illness doesn't care about situtations, yeah?
Me
i guess you're right..
oldhyun💖
mhm. i know i can't fix things, but i want you to promise me something
Me
what?
oldhyun💖
you'll try.
oldhyun💖
you'll try to stay here, no matter how much the idea of ending it all tugs at you
oldhyun💖
because so many people love you
oldhyun💖
/i/ love you.
oldhyun💖
and i want you to try to find the things to live for.
oldhyun💖
i know you're a fighter
oldhyun💖
you hate giving up
oldhyun💖
so please, don't give up. not on your life.
oldhyun💖
because we're both so young, and full of opportunities
oldhyun💖
and i know, deep inside, you want to live.
oldhyun💖
you really do want to live.
Me
i do.
Me
i'll try.
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gays only | day6
Fanfiction[COMPLETE] DAY6 TEXTING FIC. ::::: When Sungjin is bored one night, he adds four of his friends who are (mostly) strangers amongst each other into a group chat. Secrets are revealed, trust is broken, but maybe in the end it's all worth it. ::::: S...
