Seven (Bts x male little reader)

Chapter 19-The Funeral

(Y/n) POV

"(Y/n) we need to show you something. Please be strong, hyungs are all right here" Kookie said. Jimin raced upstairs and quickly returned with a set of black clothes

Seeing my confusion, Yoongi explained. "(Y/n), we're having Enika's funeral...."

Tears immediately swarmed my vision. I began to stammer, and Jin cuddled me in his arms, whispering sweet nothings to me and kissing my head.

"Angel, please don't cry. We're right here. Hyungs are right here. We'll help you. Are you ready?" Namjoon asked me

I hesitantly nodded. My mates helped me change into the clothes, and I then realized they were wearing all black as well.

They led me outside, where I saw the most beautiful and the most heartbreaking scene. There in front of me was a gold casket with white flowers forming gorgeous patterns, holding my baby sister's dead body. She looked peaceful there, lying in a spotless white dress holding a bundle of white roses, with a dove stuffed animal laying on her stomach.

That sight alone made me want to cry, and then I saw the rest.

This whole setup was found behind an archway, beside a sakura blossom tree, petals floating down in the wind. Her soon to be burial place had a premade gravestone, with a glass dove hanging from one side, and a crown on the other. Roses surrounded it, and I broke down

"Enika..." I choked out. Taehyung back hugged me, and Jimin rubbed himself against my legs and meowed.

"I hope you approve of this. We all pitched in to make this. We agreed to let you come out here whenever you'd like to vent to her. I know she's still looking after you my little mate" Tae said, planting a soft, comforting kiss to my collarbone

I took a brave step forward, and I kneeled in front of her casket. I placed both hands and my forehead on it.

"Enika I'm so sorry. Oppa's so sorry. I-I was supposed to protect you....I fa-failed you. Please forgive me Ennie....I-I hope I can see you s-soon" I sobbed, squeezing my eyes shut.

Jimin plopped himself on my legs, trying to comfort me. The other six had some kind of skinship with me, whether it be hugging me or just rubbing patterns on my thigh.

After a few minutes, Jin held me against him as Tae and Jungkook lifted the casket and settled it in the already dug grave. I was trying so hard not to cry more. All I wanted was to crawl in there with her so maybe things could go back to normal. I still wished this was just a dream, that I would wake up beside Enika to the sound of my alarm to wake her up and go to school.

Sadly, life isn't that generous.

After the dirt covered her beautiful resting place, they let me go. I kneeled on the dirt once again and pressed my head against the ground.

I'm so sorry Enika.

"(Y/n), I'm sorry but we need to go inside. It's going to storm soon" Jin said, trying to make me stand up. I whimpered and tried my hardest to sit by her grave.

"Please hyung, don't make me leave!"

He sighed, but gave me a kiss, allowing me to stay. The rest of them did the same, Jimin obviously just licking my face.

When it was Yoongi's turn, he crouched in front of me, "Baby boy, next time we ask you to come inside, please listen. We don't want you getting sick, understand?"

I nodded

They left and I found myself alone with Enika. With one hand on the grave and one over my mouth, I sobbed.

Why do I have to be like this? Why am I so weak? I couldn't protect Enika. I couldn't protect mom and dad. Why am I allowed to stay here when everyone else I love can't?

-time skip-

My mates dragged me back inside when it started raining. My eyes were puffy and red. My cheeks were tear-stained and flushed. I couldn't look them in the eyes. All I wanted to do was go back to Enika. She was my everything, and now it's my fault she's gone. She was innocent, she had so much life in her; and I'm....me

Hobi saw my depressed state. "Little sunshine please tell us what's wrong. Let daddies help"

"I'm fine. Just sad about her funeral" I lied

Taehyung lifted my chin and made me look at him. "Don't lie to us. You have one more chance. Tell us what you've been thinking out there or you will be punished for lying to us"

With difficulty, I told them. " I-I don't want to live. Everyone I care about ends up dead, and it's my fault. Enika was completely innocent, and yet she's the one who died. I just want to go back to her" I choked out, looking back at the ground and fiddling with my fingers.

I was quickly picked up and carried to Namjoon's bedroom. I panicked and started struggling. I was afraid they were furious at me for being the fuck up I am. Maybe they finally believe me.

I was sat on the bed as all of my mates surrounded me. "Do you want to watch a movie little angel?" Namjoon asked me

Not expecting that, I stammered "What?"

"What do you want to do? You told us what you were feeling, and we thank you for that. You also handled Enika's funeral better than we expected, so you get a reward little kit!" Jungkook praised

I felt myself slipping into little space. I don't want to. It's selfish of me

My seven mates were able to see my internal conflict, and they decided to do everything in their power to make me slip.

They changed me into a dino onesie, after each of them kissing my scars once again, and they talked to me in baby talk using pet names

Giving in, I slipped

"I have a better idea for a reward instead of a movie" Jungkook said