Save Me

16'

Zendaya

Lord, what is this girl talking about? And more importantly, what does she want with me? What did I do? Besides take up all of the time her boyfriend could be spending with her-

Oh, there's the problem.

"Sorry. I'm really confused right now." I can feel the look of confusion on my face, but Geneva doesn't care, in fact, she laughs at me.

"Oh Zendaya, cut the bullshit. You've been playing this innocent act for way too fucking long. I see how you are around Jah." She frowns as she says his name and I widen my eyes.

"We're only friends." I whisper and she laughs dryly.

"Girl, whatever! You're like a lost puppy when you're with him. I see the way you act so clueless around him, just to keep him interested with you." She points a manicured nail at me and I open my mouth to respond, but she puts up a hand.

"I didn't come here for an explanation, I came here to set you straight. Jah is mine. I laid down, he got on top, we made love and now I'm carrying his baby. Not you!" She growls in my face and my eyes widen.

"I'm not even trying to do anything to mess up your relationship..." I trail off, not knowing what else to say. She smirks.

"Yeah, whatever. But really? You really think you can mess up or harm our relationship? Look at you! Jah was right, I am prettier and saner than you." She smiled triumphantly and I'm surprised to feel my heart drop.

"He said that?" I question more to myself, but of course Geneva hears.

"He sure did. The day when we were all at the mall when he introduced us. Did you really think Jah liked you? What is wrong with you? You're like 10lbs and I can almost see right through you. Who the hell would even want that? And what made you think that Jah was interested in you?" She scowls at me and everything starts to get blurry. I see Geneva's figure start to shake.

"Aw, are you gonna cry now?" She coos in a baby voice and I look down, letting the tears fall to the ground, eliminating my blurry vision. I sniffle as her laughter rings in my ear. I reach up and wipe my tears, not caring if Geneva sees or not. I look back up and she pouts dramatically at me.

"Oh, I'm so sorry I hurt your feelings, but the truth hurts." She shrugs and I hiccup, shaking my head.

"If you and Jahseh really had a good relationship, you wouldn't be here interrogating me." I sniffle and a smirk creeped its way on my face, proud of the way I worded all of that together. Her eyes show a flash of hurt and I take advantage of it

"Yeah, and everytime I mention your name, his mood completely changes." I add and she looks hopeful, but before she could say anything, I quickly shut her down.

"His mood changes to the sourest!" I whisper out harshly and she glares hard at me.

"You don't know shit!" She snaps and I nod.

"I know more than you think. I might have some problems, but I'm getting better. I could be way worse off." I wipe away the last tears and automatically place my hands on my stomach.

"But this baby is the only thing keeping the last bit of my sanity. I'm really sorry to hear how you and Jahseh think of me, but I know that this baby is gonna change my life for the better. And that's one of the two reasons why I'm okay. You wanna know what the other is?" I tilt my head to the side and she stares down at my stomach, not paying attention but I continue anyways.

"The other reason is this family that took me in willingly, with the exception of Jahseh. Thanks to you, I now know how he really thinks about me." I frown a bit and Geneva snaps her head up, shaking a bit.