Deepest Despair •KatsuDeku Soulmate AU•

Chapter 3

Sorry that I'm a lazy ass and haven't been rewriting the chapters! I just got back from a vacation and now I'm sick asf but I'm still going to try and write a chapter. I really want to get these over with at this point. I'm planning to just completely rewrite up to chapter around 6 or 9. But eh. Oh!Thank you all so much for 70k reads! This is like- insane! Just a week ago it was at like 50k and it went up 20k in a week? Holy shit- are you guys trying to make me cry? Cause it's working.

Oh, and warning (I'm not going to do warnings for every chapter, probably only this one) This chapter has Self doubt and self confidence problems in it...so...uh if that's a trigger to you, stay away from this chapter.

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Friday, one day before Izuku's birthday.
Before school.

Izuku hasn't left his house for over 48 hours. He skipped two days of school, and he barley even feels like moving out of his bed. For the past two days, Izuku has been refusing to attend school to All Might, instead he simply laid curled in a tight ball in his nest of pillows and blankets, trying to think positively about what had happened on Tuesday. But what was positive about that day?

Sure, Inko did end up being placed in the top hospital in Tokyo, but that was only because All Might was there. And sure, she was still alive, but she was in critical condition. Not mention, Izuku's father hadn't come home for the past days...so he assumed that could be a plus? But how could that be a plus when all Izuku wants to do is kick the shit out of him? Hell, if Izuku was really thinking hard about positive acts then sure, his friends had texted him about a thousand times, which was sweet...but Izuku really wasn't in the mood to talk to anyone.

So of course, Izuku would stay cooped up in his room for another day? Probably get dragged by his feet out of his house by Uraraka but still, Izuku would surely stay home one more day.

"You have to go to school today, young Midoriya. You can't be skipping school! I understand you are in pain...but think of this! Maybe school could get your mind off things for a little? Your friends have been asking a lot about you, they are worried. If you don't come to school today then I'm not sure Aizawa will be very pleased as well..."

Well shit. Izuku can absolutely not risk losing his place in 2-A. That was one of the only things that kept Izuku sane at this point, he couldn't lose that. So, seems like Izuku is going to be coming to school today, much to his displeasure.

Izuku groaned as he felt the morning sunrise hit his closed eyes. Peeling open his right eye, he glanced aside over at his clock, sighing as he read the much to early time that was bold in red. 5:28 . No matter how much Izuku hoped he could go to back to sleep, he knew he couldn't, not with his nerves. His mind is surely going to find something to go on a tangent about and scare little old Izuku wide awake before the clock could even hit 6 o'clock yet.

So, with his body screaming in protest, he carefully slide himself out of his tangled and bloody bedsheets. Bloody? Izuku had been cutting. It's been his way of release for over a year and he had found himself doing it before he could even comprehend it. He glared at one of the larger red patches and groaned in disgust. He was weak cutting. It was weak that his immediate reaction to emotional pain is physical, and it was disgusting. He had friends at school that asked him on a daily basis if he was okay, they wore the most sympathetic, kind, and caring emotion on their faces as they tried to look Izuku in the eye and get any type of answer from him. He had people who made it very aware that he had people who cared for him, that were there for him, but his mind never truly comprehended that. For some idiotic reason his brain decided it didn't give a flying fuck that he had people who cared, instead it continued to pump worst and worst thoughts into Izuku and make him truly believe that no one was there.