My autobiography

My relationships

   So my very first crush was on a guy but I didn't realize until way later on in my life but to me my very first crush was on my best friend her name was Isabella and I had liked her the very first moment I looked at her and he like this guy and he treated her bad and I really liked her and when they were broke up I told him I liked her so her went and told her and I told him not to be he did so know she knew.
     I was so embarrassed but one day they broke up and she asked me to date her and sure enough my answer was yes but what I didn't know will break my heart. One day out of the blue I was at home and she texted me and she told me that she was sorry but she had to break up with me because she wanted to get back with the guy she actually liked.
    So she used me to get the other guy jealous and when that happened she got back with him I cried for hours because the pain was so bad because my heart was broken.
   My second relationship happened when I decided to move to my moms and it was a guy from my old school and I was so happy at first that I was in a relationship that both wanted to be in but eventually it got boring because he always wanted to text and I didn't like that because if you talk everyday then you have nothing to talk about. Eventually we stopped talking which meant we broke up.
    My third relationship was with a boy at my school I go to now his name was angel and Ioved him a lot but in the end he broke up with me but back to the relationship. He was so sweet to me and he was my first kiss and I loved him so much I would have done anything for him but the only things that always bothered me is that he never want to show affection in front of others because he didn't want it getting back to his aunt.
      But when he left to go see his mother he came back different he didn't look at me anymore, he stopped talking to me, and he never wanted to be around me. Just this killed me because I knew something was wrong. One day he took me up stairs and he told me that he was sorry that he didn't want to do this but he said I have to break up with you because I need to realize all that I have done wrong and I felt like I was one of the things he had done wrong in his life so he got rid of me.
      When he broke up with me I was so stunned and I didn't know what to say but I just stood there shaking my head and when I got home I cried and cried until I fell asleep and this happened every night and I couldn't stand to look at him because I Would start crying and I don't like to cry in public because it made me feel like I'm weak and I don't like that.