I believe that when two people are in love with each other you can see it in their eyes. The way they look at each other, the way they stare at each other, it's all there. Their eyes full of admiration, of attraction of undying feelings for each oth...
I decide to walk back by myself. The warm breeze ruffled my hair, but i didn't notice it as much as the ache in my heart. The though of Chanyeol being right brakes me. If i was honest with myself i would say that i don't understand my heart. I really don't. Why would I be in love with someone who treated me like I was a stranger after everything we went through. Instead why couldn't I be in love with the boy who cares so much about me, the boy who would break his own heart so I could be happy.
However as i think about it more Jungkook took a bullet for us both. Because of our immaturity and not being careful enough, we got caught. And I had no idea about it. I was the one who should be sorry for giving him such a hard time. I shouldn't have given up so easily.
One foot after the other i somehow get back to the boys' dorms. My thoughts are all over the place. I've never been more confused in my life. After all this time I realized that I'm the selfish bad guy. He risked himself for me, he took responsibility for everything that happened between us, unfortunately without telling me. He went through so much pain, and i wish there was a better word to say than sorry. But i know for sure that Chanyeol is right.
I walk into the front door and try to put my best poker face. I really don't want to talk about it right now.
The first face I see is Yoongi's. He seems glad to see me and greets me with a high five.
"What happened why are you so happy?" I ask.
"Just happy to see you, plus Seokjin agreed to pay for tonight's takeout! We're feasting tonight!" He said laughing.
I gave him a little smile trying to act normal but I'm really not in the mood for any food, no matter who's paying.
"Thats great, but I think I'll pass tonight. I'm a bit tired from practice." I say and try my best to fake yawn.
He buys it "Well okay then, but your gonna miss out on a lot of good food. Just saying."
I go in my room and lay on the bed. I look up at the ceiling and inspect every little line that i can see. What am i doing? Is my life really going to work out the way people say it will? I close my eyes and began to rethink everything. How did all this happen.
Shortly after i hear a knock that I could barely hear.
"Yes?"
I see Joon walk in and I instantly sit up and put on my poker face again. Why of all people did it have to be my brother. Theres no way I could fool him he's gonna see right trough me.
"Hey I heard you weren't hungry, everything alright?" he asks.
I'm kind of offended. So if I decline free food, it seems like something is wrong with me?.. I mean yeah he has a point I'd never miss out on free food.
"Yeah I'm l alright just a little tired."
"Hmm" he says and observes me, "Nah something is wrong with you. Do you want to talk about it?"
I think that Namjoon is the best person to have a deep conversation with. So I take him up on the offer.
"Actually today Chanyeol broke up with me.." I say silently while sitting up.
Namjoon widens his eyes and turns on his big brother defense mode. "What? When? Where is he right now? Let me call and meet him."
"Aaa no its okay, its mutual. It was time anyway. Plus he made me realize some things that I was too blind to see." I say while looking down at the floor.
"Like what?"
"I still love Jungkook I never stopped. I always worried and watched quietly from afar."
"Y/n just take your time figuring your feelings out, don't rush this." Joon says softly.
"I know, I'll work on figuring them out."
"Just know that fate does exist. I mean look at BTS, we're a great example of the word fate. This wasn't a coincidence. This was meant to be. And if your love to Jungkook is meant to be, it will work out no matter what stands in your way. You have to be honest with yourself."
And that why my brother is my biggest supporter. He makes me feel better with each word that comes out of him mouth. I'm glad I have him by my side.
"Thanks Joon, your words always help me. Now what do you say we go and eat. Seokjin's paying."
We laugh and head to where everyone else is.
No matter what happens, I'll always be thankful for my little family.
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hello everyone! its been a while hasn't it. I'm so sorry that it took so much time to write this chapter but now that summer has started i will try my best to keep updating this story. I think that i will end it around 35 or 40 chapter,, but im still plotting everything out.
Please everyone stay safe and make sure to wear masks and take safety measures. Thank so much for supporting me and hopefully i will update sooner this time :)
