mistrust by sexuality

Amanda & sammie the nerd

Dear , dairy

Sept. 22

Omg sammie is so amazing like shes this mixture of janae and lexi mixed like her eyes tells a millions things i like about her its only been 10 months and i must say i love her but sometimes i feel like im being mistrusted again i have alot of issuse in the past of things but i have to let by gones be gones im grown shapes into a beautiful young lady fukll of wisdom and life and maturity im glad im offically ms loveheart(: so much joy night dairy.

Rinnnnnnnnng rinnnnnnnng! I woke up and answer yes baby and samantha says i love you everyday im going to tell you , when your sick ill be your nurse when your silly ill be your gamer buddie amd make u feel special and unwanted .

Whem i heard that my heart meltes into a million pieces and i said omg baby that was so amazing i feel the same way about and she giggled like a little otter .

*bad boy zach phone call*

Hey

Hi.

Wassup

The sky

Sorry for not noticing you

Its okay im use to it by now

I like you

Awkward silences.... Uhhh omg me too

I like to take you out

Im taken by sammie

Omg shes pretty like you

*blushes*

Thanks

Hangs up

Ring ring ring ring.

Hey janae i said

Hey bestfriend

Guess what zach likes me

Omg really

Yea gurl

Yea gurl im so confused

About what Amanda

My sexuality

Why is that

I like bad boy zach alot but im in love with sammie like shea has everything i want in need shes so amazing in every way but then Zach's a bad boy filled with potential and excitement and a great body

How would that make sammie feel she had developed alot of feelings for you Amanda like dont hurt her shes so sensitive she never had a girlfriend like before she wouldnt be open about her sexuality but now shes not afraid of being judge or anything anymore

Gosh janae i never thought i made her feel that way dont tell her but im suffering from cancer stage 3 its really bad dont tell her i have appointments after school to see how long i have to live they say 5 week its been three so far i been coughing up blood and everything oh hold on im at my doctor now

*35 mins of silence*

Doctor say ms. Brianna

Amanda lab work isnt getting any better the chemo isnt helping anymore only thing we can do is let her enjoy her final days

Janae starts crying

Janae, janae, Amanda said gosh ima be okay and fine i just gotta believe ima be fine and smile and keep my head up because shit like this isnt gonna bring me down like forreal , i love seeing yall happy no frowns or anything