mistrust by sexuality

unforgettable memories

AS three months rolled back i cried my eyes out the only girl that ever gave me a Chance is gone my life universe and world gon before my eyes i just think about her when im sad i think and wonder why shea dead and who did this i just wann make them feel my pain  i stare at our picture and a tear rolls down my face i cried day and night just saying her name brings memories of us hugging and cuddling i hold my pillow at night wondering and tricking my mind think its her  and i fall asleep next day at school people say sorry for your lost its sad i just wish me good things and not worry about the bad times or negative but honesty i sit their and grab a knife and cut my self and bleed i cry and bleed much more i put my earphones and feel no pain i take pills i say dear lord, if your my wisdom and great savior i want you to take my life and let me be with sammie my one and only love my day and night maker i sing  my favorite song bleeding love and i close my eyes but i see a shadow  sammie i said  is that you as my eyes close

*knock knock amanda , amanda my mom yelled*

Amanda  amanda no answer from me she bust in my room and tried to wake me but it was to late she saw the knife and scream and call 911  omg why no amanda stay with me

Operator : 911 whats ur emergency

My daughter she losing alot of blood can u please send a paramedic please shes no talking back to me or anybody

911: okay were sending one your address ma'ma

Mom: 5321 east Manchester ave

Okay ma'ma were on our way 

3-5 hours later boom boom  as emergency doors fly open we need a doctor fast  were losing her no Amamda stay with us i rush into surgery they stop the blood but i was on death road i felt weak i couldnt eat my mom stared at me and cried and sammie mom came and said is she okay no she almost died