In All Honesty

Ch.1 Love Struck

Ch. 1 - Love Struck
Present day March 2019:
I have something serious to tell you so please hear me out!! I say nervously with a loud voice. "What is it?" A woman says. Will you please go out with me!! I say in a strong voice as I bow my head towards her and close my eyes waiting to hear the worst. "Lift your head up." She says. I do as she says and what awaits in front of me is a smile with tears running down her cheeks. I know most of you might not know what's going on with this situation. So let me backtrack to how it all started. It was September of 2015 when my whole life changed forever. I had gotten news that someone was going to be coming to live with us for awhile. It shocked me quite a bit at first but after about two weeks of her living here I got used to it. It became a normal occurrence to say hello to her. But that was it we didn't talk at all, we just exchanged greetings nothing else. Until one day I randomly started talking to her about the book she was currently reading. I don't know why I started talking to her or why I got the urge to do so but I did. The way she looked down at her book engraved in thought. It made we want to talk to her. I hadn't seen anyone that enlightened by a book in ages so it peaked my interests. So gradually I talked to her, we ended up talking to one another for two weeks just simply about the book and how it ended. That led to us discussing about other things. Like the type of music she listens to, food she likes, and importantly why she's here. You see she told me she came to live with us because of her mother being abusive. She used to hit her a lot for absolutely anything she did. When she told me about it I was shocked that this was going on. Not only that but it was happening for years and she couldn't do anything about it. Her house felt like a cage and she was the little bird that didn't know how to fly away. I didn't know what exactly to say so all I did was listen. She told me more about herself and what she wanted to do with her life. She said she wanted to be a singer just like I wanted too. But just like I was she wasn't able to. We we're both dreamers with common goals and interests. Thus it led us to speaking to one another more and more often. I would often go next door just to see and talk to her. It would make my day just being able to be with her and her presence. We would watch TV together, eat together and even sing together. It was great, life was great. I had started writing song lyrics again thanks to her as I had stopped doing so after I finished with Highschool. She gave me that passion to start writing again and being with her made me feel alive. Day by day after hanging out with her more and more I suddenly realized it. Am I in love?? I would go over to her house and spend most of my day there with her. Just talking and watching TV. It was nice, it felt as though I was coming home after a long day of work. Every time I would come over she would answer the door with a smile and ask me if I wanted to come in. It was the most precious smile I had ever seen;  a smile that made you feel warm inside. She was a normal girl who would always wear the same outfits. A plain T-shirt, a pair of blue jeans and high top shoes. Their was absolutely nothing special about her. She wasn't a bombshell so to speak but she wasn't ugly either. She was just the normal girl next door who I happened to fall in love with. After getting to know her for a few months I popped the question. I didn't actually pop the question but I did technically say it. I went over to her house like usual but this time I had no time to waste. I told her I that I loved her. My heart was beating like crazy and it felt as though all of this was for naught. I waited patiently for an answer. Until I got my answer; she loved me too. It felt like an eternity waiting, standing there without a reply. After I got my answer I felt as though I was on cloud nine. Like all the stars had aligned together to allow me this chance encounter. I felt blessed to be able to fall in love with her. Even more so now that she became mine. I had the stupidest smile on me that day. But I didn't care I was truly happy the happiest I'd ever been. This was the start of something magical for me. I had never had a girlfriend before so it all felt so surreal to me. I couldn't imagine my luck when she said she felt the same. After that we started dating like most couples do we watched TV together, ate together and even did stupid things together. But two weeks into it I felt i needed to take that next step. I wanted to hold her hand but I didn't know what to do to get their. I tried several times beforehand but all attempts failed as I had chickened out at the last second. So this time I decided today was the day. It was the perfect opportunity for me, we we're walking down the streets of our neighborhood and with no one around. I couldn't let a chance like this slip. So I went in and grabbed her hand, although I did feel embarrassed as all hell. Mostly because I have to tendency to have sweaty hands whenever I'm nervous. At first I thought I should let go she doesn't like this. That is until I went to look at her. Her face was beat red, she was clearly embarrassed. Looking at her like that made me embarrassed too so I also looked the other way. We weren't paying attention to where we we're headed so I ended up face first into a mailbox. I ended up with a bloody nose that day and made her worry about me. You should have seen her she was just their panicking about my bloody nose and what to do. I smiled and laughed at her and she did the same although a bit embarrassed at what happened. That day I took that step forwards and it made our relationship grow.

-Ch.1 END-