Voodoo Doll

September, 24th

Dear Diary: 

So remember I told you I was going to the park yesterday? Well I did, and you’ll never guess what happened. 

I changed into my running shorts and shirt and put the leash on Blondie. We walked out and into the park. I had my earphones in and was running when I crashed with someone and fell to the ground. 

“Why do we always find each other like this?” I laughed.

“Hey Ivy, can we talk? Please.” Luke asked. 

“Of course.” We sat in some bench and started talking. 

“There’s something I need to tell you.” He looked nervous. 

“What is it?” I asked. 

“Ivy... I’m blind.” 

“What?”

“i’m blind, I can’t see. I’ve been blind for my whole life.” Of course! It’s all there! The way his eyes are always lost in something else, the way he feels everything he touches, He’s blind! I’m screwed. 

“Wait so.. you can’t see me?” I breathed. 

“No doofus, that’s what ‘blind’ means” He laughed, and I did too. “There’s something more...”

“What is it?” I asked. 

“Ivy I- I  think I love you.” No. No. No.

“As friends right?” I nervously asked, no he can’t love me! Please God, no. 

“No, I love you Ivy, and I want to be more than just friends with you!” He touched my cheek, “I love you.” He leaned in and gave me the sweetest cutest kiss I’ve ever had.It was full of love and desire. I kissed him back and we kept on talking for a while. 

“I love you too.” I smiled. 

We agreed on seeing each other again today, so I drove to his apartment. I knocked on the door but he wouldn’t answer. Maybe he’s asleep? I knocked once more but got no response. I searched the floor and plants for a spare key but found none. I dialed his number like 15 times but he didn’t answer. There is definitely something wrong, he always answers his phone. I couldn’t think of anything else to do so I grabbed a rock and threw it at the window. I sticked my arm through the cracks making sure not to cut myself, and opened the door. When I walked in there was no sign of him. I kept on walking, looking through his apartment, and finally came onto the last door. 

I carefully opened it and my eyes couldn’t believe what they saw. This can’t be happening. My knees gave up on me and I went crashing to the floor. I screamed, as loud as I could. Tears started falling from my eyes, one after another. This is not happening, it’s just a nightmare. I couldn’t do anything but to cry and scream. There was so much pain inside of me. I could feel the pain taking over every cell in my body. It hurts so much. 

Can you imagine seeing the one person you love the most, lying on the bed, lifeless? The color drained from his eyes? The pained expression on his face? 

I crawled closer to him and grabbed his face. 

“Please don’t die, please don’t leave me.” I sobbed. “I’m sorry Luke, I’m so sorry. This is all my fault” I couldn’t stop crying. 

xoxo

-Ivy