𝐩𝐫𝐢𝐦𝐚𝐥 | grethan

nine - the berries in gray

"Grayson Bailey? Please change into this patient gown so we can begin"

I tried to focus on tugging a standard issue hospital gown over my slight baby bump but my head was pounding and I was breathing too fast. My fingers reached out desperately to hold Ethan's hand but he's not here like all of my other prenatal appointments. Instead my fist closed grasping at empty air. I'm trying my absolute hardest not to feel abandoned because this has been difficult on us both, he just needs space. I can't imagine how it must've felt for him to find out his mate might be carrying another man's pup, especially since Ethan's an Alpha who needs control.

Right before I started to cry, a warm hand grabbed my empty searching one and I smiled at the contact. My best friend Aaron grinned back at me from his seat next to the patient bed. My smile was wobbly at best but Aaron's face glowed with all the support I need right now. He and his mate Kyle have been living with me since I found out about the pregnancy, around the same time Ethan took off. He hasn't visited me once but we talk on the phone every night and he checks up on me. Without Aaron's company I think I would've let myself go just like Ethan did. I suppose its hard for him to see me pregnant and not know for sure that the child is his. But its not like I cheated, I was fucking raped and Ethan's backwards wolf mind just can't comprehend the situation.

"Is the gel too cold sweetie? We can try again in a few minutes if you're really uncomfortable" A nurse standing over my patient table said.

I shook my head, lying back on the metal table and jerked my chin at the wand in her gloved hand that's hooked up to the screen, indicating her to bring it to my swollen belly. She complied and rubbed around the ultrasound fluid to get a viable reading.

The nurse's eyes crinkled with pity for me and I grit my teeth in anger. One of the few things I hate about wolves is their keen noses. She can tell Aaron isn't my mate because I let off Ethan's scent and Aaron radiates Kyle's scent, we don't emit our own smells anymore since we're the submissive Omega so there's really no need. The world knows I belong to Ethan before I even open my mouth. The nurse probably thinks I'll be raising this baby on my own but I know damn well there's no way I'm gonna be a single parent.

Ethan will come to his senses eventually, at least I hope he does. I'm almost at the first trimester which means if this baby isn't his, I'll have a miscarriage due to my Omega nature. What I don't get is why I have to suffer all by my lonesome. I fear I'll be the only one mourning the baby even though it was conceived through my rape because regardless of how the child came to be its innocent. Either way, Ethan should be here.

One of my hands was squeezing the arm rest of my patient bed anxiously and the other was cradled in Aaron's lap. We both seem to hold our breath until the ultrasound finally emitted a beep and I could hear my baby's heartbeat. I smiled but then suddenly had to clutch my chest, I can't get any air in. My fingers raked at my throat uselessly but the oxygen flow just wasn't there at all. The walls were closing in around me, I felt numb and disconnected from the world as my body grew weaker with each wheeze.

Something's wrong inside me, I can feel my energy ebbing away while the baby's heartbeat only grew stronger. The nurse looked shocked and gave me an oxygen mask at the same time all the monitors attached to me went crazy, flashing red warning lights. Aaron jumped out of his seat and fluttered over me but was helpless just like I was.

"W-what's happening t-to me" I said in between desperate breaths. The nurse was very alarmed and did a check on my monitors along with the baby's. She pursed her lips in a grave manner and I could tell she had come to a conclusion but I'm not gonna like it.

"It appears your child is taking your strength, like um sucking away energy. I've seen this before with Omega rape victims, the fetus is called a siphon. Tell me Grayson, how did you get pregnant?" She said, writing things down and marking off boxes on my chart. I inhaled heavily through the oxygen mask then took it away from my mouth to answer her.