Against my will (Book 2)

We have to talk

Kiaras pov

"Thanks for tonight Ed" I smile as he pulls up at my house

"No problem, I have had literally the best night ever" he says nervously

"I'll see you soon then" I smirk grabbing my clutch and jumping out of the car

"Text me" he says before I shut the door

I wave him off and unlock the door

I tiptoe through to house and towards the kitchen

"Kiara" I hear a whisper

"Oh hey mum, your up late" I say grabbing a cup

"We gotta talk" she sighs

"What's up" I say turning on the tap

"Why" Chris screams

Shoot I didn't see him there

"Calm down what's wrong"

"What's wrong? WHATS WRONG? Kiara you have been self harming again!!! and you are anorexic! ok, there I said it" he shouts

"Wow" I say letting a tear roll down my cheek

Silence is broken by footsteps entering the room

There stands a depressed Harry and Niall

"Kiar-

"Dont" I cry

"Listen"

"No you listen Niall!! I helped you!!! how could you do this, ok and yeah I started self harming again but why do you think! It's all you! ok, you guys have beaten me up and broke my heart so..... so"

"Kiara calm down" mum sighs

"Get out" I spit at Harry and Niall

"Please" Harry pleads

"GET OUT" I scream

I run out of the room and into mine

I slam the door and jump on my bed and cry into my pillow

Why did they have to come into my life, and yes I lied they aren't the whole reason I self harm but I just blurted it out.

"Kiara" I hear a husky voice at the door

"Chris piss off" I scream into the pillow

I hear no noise so I decide to investigate

"Please Chri- harry?" I say as he shuts the door

"Just listen" he smiles

I nodd twiddling with my thumbs

"This isn't you" he sighs

"What's wrong? Kiara you are the first girl I have ever loved and I want it to be the last. I don't think I will be able to get over you Kiara. But something about you has changed. You've become weak and I want to be here to hold you when you cry" he finishes

"We can't have one conversation without you telling me you love me" I say furrowing my eyebrows

"Because I do! and I'm not the only one. Everyone else can see that, but why is the only person that can't is you."

I stay silent

Soaking in his every word

"I can understand you have been through a lot and I know that is all on us.... but please Kiara. You know the first time this happened I couldn't breathe without you. What would I do if you died? probably be broken" he says tears stinging at his eyes

"Please leave" I sob

"No" he argues

"Fine" I yell running out the room

Before I knew it me legs took me out the door into the car

I slam my purse into the passenger seat

I take of with no where to go

And no idea where to go

Wait

I know

Louis pov

"You little horse butt" I yell hitting Liam in the arm

"Don't be such a baby" he laughs

"You idiot" I say throwing my controller at him

"I didn't mean to kill you!" he says throwing up his hands in defence

"What ever, I don't wanna play anymore" I chuckle giving Niall my controller

"So ready for the tour?" Zayn smirks from the kitchen

"I guess" I sigh

"We leave in under a month" Zayn shrugs

"I know, I'm just not ready to leave this all behind" I exclaim

"Me either" Niall adds

"And 'all this' is Kiara isn't it" Liam laughs

"So anyway" Niall says breaking the silence "it's also Christmas soon, we leave on the 30th of december"

"Yah" I say grabbing some grapes

"We really need to do our Christmas shopping" Liam adds

"And my birthday!" I shout

We are interrupted by the door swinging open causing us to jump

"She's gone " Harry huffs

"Huh?" Niall says standing up

"Gone?"Liam says raising his voice

"Yes!" shouts a voice walking into the room

"Chris?" I say suprised

"Stop dilly dallying and hurry up" he shouts storming out

"What?" we all murmur confused

"He wanted to help, now come on" Harry says stomping out

"Let's go" Liam sighs

Kiaras pov

Flash back

"Dad stop" I yell running into the corner or my room

"You never hit my friends" he growls

"But dad you don't understand, they were doing things to me" I whimper

"Well that's what I got paid for, now get back in there and do what I got paid for" he shouts

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The last time I ever saw my dad?

When I was 16

Flashbacks and memories come flooding back

I haven't had them in ages

I sit on the bright green grass heavily breathing in and out

I stare out into the beautiful flowers

But then I think of the boys, my mum and Chris

It's become freezing and dark but I feel more secure than ever

I wish my life could always be this simple

But no...