Determined [Malum fanfiction]

02 - What if?

It's been a week since we went to the cemetery and I have already become obsessed. I spent all my free time searching little pieces of information about the Hemmings. But even though I was doing my best I didn't find anything about their son. It could possibly be the only one who can give me the best info about them since they were his parents. Unfortunately, there was nothing. All I knew was that he was six when they died. I didn't even know his name. How could this be as I know they were pretty famous here in Sydney. I guess they hid their privacy too well for my own bad.

There were tons of articles about their lives. What a cute love story I have to admit. They've been together since high school, but they had to hide their relatioship, because of, what I learnt, parents. When they were just about my age, they actually came to whole neighbourhood when they had a speech on a bonfire that held place near their houses. 

"... everybody deserves love. A love from your family, love from your friends, love from your pet and of course a love from your soulmate.I found mine in this lovely boy, Ashton. And I'm not ashamed to be homosexual, because he loves me the way I am. And all that matters. Let yourself be happy, let yourself be loved by anyone you love. If it's a girl or a boy, it just doesn't matter at all. There always is someone who cares about you, know you better than you know yourself and treat you like a treasure they found at the bottom of the deepest ocean. The always is that one person that will save your life. And I found that person in Ash. He literally saved my heart, because you know, it's hard talkint about it, but I used to be suicidal. Being gay and all the preassure from everyone around myself was sometimes too hard to take. But then he came and turned my world upside down. I love him. And I wish you all will find the love. The love of your life that will make you feel special, that will make you see yourself in a different light and that you will be complete with. I wish you all that. Because this is what everyone deserves. So let us be happy and love each other. Please."

I won't pretend that I didn't get emotional when I read his speech over and over again. He was only seventeen when he said this and that was so deep and truly amazing. In late 80's it meant a lot. He was brave enough to came out in public and I think he must have had encouraged many people by that time.

Since then they became really famous. Their parents weren't pleased much about this whole thing but they accepted them and helped them to get through some things, such as starting running their careers as musicians. They weren't as popular as musicinans as they were for supporting gay rights. One day they finally made it to legalize same gender marriage. And they were the first couple to be married in Sydney.And when one of their best friend's died, they were the ones to addopt the kid that was left. Oh, another thing I know about the kid. But still no name.

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It's Saturday evening and I lay here in my room, under a blue blanket with my laptop and I search the whole internet because there must be something. There must be something about that boy. Yet I found nothing. I need to focus on something else. Maybe their parents? 

I tried searching about them, but the reason I found barely anything was that Luke's parents were divorced, his father lived in America now and his mother died from cancer couple years ago. Ashton's dad left them when he was a child. So the only one left was Ashton's mother. However there was no article about her. 

Suddenly my eyes flashed accross this title.

'Ashton Irwin-Hemmings' mother placed into mental asylum after her son's death.'

And this is the place I need to go.

I need to meet her.

I need to know their son.

I didn¨t know why. There was something that was telling me to find him. And I was determined to do my best. What if it's the msot important thing I'll ever do in my life? What if?

I know. I'm lame. Sorry this is so short. But I really had to update because I've been forgetting about this story and I love it too much to forget about it. I hope I'll be updating more soon.

Check out my other stories. Especially a new one: I know it's wrong. It's a Lashton one adn well, check it out to see what's about.

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