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{ i'm not sick }

i'm not fucking sick.

i'm dieting.

it's been that way for seven months now and i'm not seeing a big enough change, so it's just even worse dieting.

sure, i barely ate at first and counted calories and didn't have fear around food and didn't think the world was going to end if i ate, like a wannarexic would.

but after four months, there was no change.

at least, not to me.

so i restricted more,

and more,

and more.

and i'm still not good enough, so i will keep going.

but i am not sick,

i am dieting.