Into You

Part 5

That night was a 50/50, I had asked for help from Caleb and he didn't want to help, he didn't really want to help get you in my life. I was already broken, I was oh-so ready to give up on life, I truly was. 

He said to not mention loving you to not mention how much I missed you but I couldn't. 

11:45... I want to cry just remembering that night and the possibilities of things changing. I remember everything so vividly. 

You came over to my house and I confessed I loved you, I asked you to block him and you did. I felt self in your arms. I felt different. 

Everything with the bracelet, to the funeral to the best friend, to Caleb to the beginning of the semester. I loved and hated everything but you were the one who always brought me to a sense of peace. I see you and I get happy, excited, loud, and just happy. I see you and I don't have that pain. I see you and I want to kiss you. I hug you and I never want to let go.

We call and I never want to end the phone call, we text, I still love keeping you on your toes, we see each other and I never want to let go.

I'm very serious about it all with you, you're the date to marry. Not the date to see where it goes.

Eric Benitez, I love you. And we might have a boatload of fights, well rarely, but you are honestly what kept me from finishing that night my story. Everything we promised is still on and forever will be on the table and no matter what I love you like crazy. Thank you for sharing your fingerprint and maybe that's why I didn't want to give my phone back to the store cause it has your fingerprint but with tear-filled eyes, I can't wait for our day, the first days of our lives in white and black, with kids, with a home. I believe now what Eleanor Waldorf said, I'm not scared to say it, I'm not scared to think about it. I'm not scared to live my full life with you, with that being said, as I mentioned before, I choose you and I'll keep choosing you every day from this day forward. 

I love you. Forever and always.

Teddy bear <3