bts 8th member

• drugs

( yeona pov )

all things are getting in my mind, all of those hates, full schedules, less sleep. it has been days since bts' newest album release and i'm stressing out. i dyed my hair brunette for this comeback and the fans is not liking it. the antis take this chance to bring you down more and more.

especially i'm still on my diet, well i shouldn't be but i force myself to. those 'fans' keep saying that i got chubbier for this comeback and that makes my insecurities come back. you have get rid of it on 2015 but guess what, the devil comes back.

despite my busy schedules i can make time for my old friend birthday party. eventhough i am late for 45 minutes well, better late than never right? i walk in to the birthday girl house and see peoples getting drunk, drunk people dancing, a loud music blasting, that disco lamp. you search for the birthday girl and hug her immidiately.

"hey sooeun! happy birthday!! i am really sorry that i am late" i apologized and hand her the gift.

"hey yeona! its been a long time! i have somethung to give you. let's go!" she said and pulls you outside the house.

"so i have just get back from other country and i bought this for you! i hope you like it! by the way it's a candy, powder candy." sooeun said and hand me that powder things.

"thank you so much!" i said and hugged her. after some time spending my time with my old friends i decided to go home since tommorow i also have a busy schedules. you come home by a cab.

after you're arrived it was almost midnight so you opened the door quietly. but it seems like nobody is asleep yet. all of the lamps are on and hoseok and yoongi are sitting on the couch together.

"oh, hey yoongs hey hobi" i said and walk to my room and immidiately collapsed to your bed. you lay down there for a while and then start doing your night routine. just before you brush your teeth you remember that sooeun gives you that candy. you take it from your bag and stared at it for a while.

"it doesnt look like a candy tho. well you cant know if you dont try right?" you said to yourself and open the pack of 'candy'

i look at it again and take it and put it into my mouth. i immidiately feel so high and dizzy at the same time. but somehow, i kinda enjoyed this and it makes you feel like i wanted more. i put some more into my mouth and then i put it on my night stand and go to sleep.

i woke up somehow feeling so much better than i usually used to be. i got up and get ready for today promotion.

time skip.

today i dont have a hectic schedule like usual. today schedule is only promotion and after the the members and i can relax in our dorm. i'm playing games with jungkook.

"yeona ah! can i borrow your charger? mine is broken because of namjoon!" he yelled from his room.

"yea! sure, take it on my night stand!!" i yelled back and continue playing. after some minutes i get confused because yoongi is taking too long time. you just ignore it when suddenly he screamed your name.

"yeona!!" he sceamed and you can say that he is mad by his tone. i got scared and run to my room immidiately. you look at him holding that candy pack while rage and dissapointment is shown on his face.

"w-what?" i stuttered i really don't know what is wrong with him and why is he freaking mad!

"don't fake it yeona! why are you doing this?!" he screamed pointing at the candy pack.

"what?! its a freakin candy pack!" i yelled back.

"you know what, let's talk with the other members." he said and went outside your room. you went inside and see yoongi calling the other members to meet up at the living room.

i sit in one of the couch and not long after all the other members come and sit on the other couch.

"ehm, so what's up?" asked namjoon and yoongi put that candy pack on the table and the other member immidiately got shocked.

"who? who freaking use a cocaine on this house?" namjoon said as he looks angry and dissapointed.

"i-it's a c-cocaine?" i stuttered as you start shaking and tears start streaming down my cheeks.

"you? why yeona? why?" jin said as he pat my back, comforting you.

"i dont know! my friend said that its a candy from other country and i decide to try it! i dont know that it is a cocaine!" i said clearly dissapointed at myself. well tbh i only know that drugs arent ggod for us but i dont know their shapes.

"hey hey, its okay. just throw that thing away" jimin said and hug me in a friendly way while i put my head on his neck.

"i'm sorry, im such a dissapoinment" i said.

"no, no youre not princess.

just love yourself" namjoon said

DO NOT USE DRUGS! IT IS DANGEROUS!!

fyi, i dont really know what is the effect of drugs and stuff so i just making things on the effects.

i purple you! bye bye🙌🏻

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